A look through my eyes

Discipline and diligence pays off

TA DA!!!

OK, that's about the best I can do for creating a happy thought in writing.

I am gaining victories as I journey along the road to wholeness.  Learning to s-l-o-w down and really enjoy my food has paid off.  I lost 4.4 pounds this past week.  Wow!  I would love to see that many fall off regularly, but I'm content in simply taking the victories as they come. It's no longer about weight loss, but about discipline.

I hadn't really thought about the whole food issue being a sin until about a year ago.  As I was weeding out some of my old paper work, I realized how much I had written over the years about wanting to lose weight and worries over food.  Somewhere along the way, I realized I had become a glutton.  UGH!  That's an ugly word.  It puts the reality of eating beyond my need squarely in front of me. 

I didn't like it. 

Then to make matters worse, I realized I'd become slothful in my behavior.  YUCK!!

Now I had to quit trying to dodge the truth and own the fact that gluttony and sloth are NOT behaviors that bring honor to God.  I'd been soft selling my sin for years; playing down gluttony as "I overeat a bit from time to time" and sloth as "I'm not as active as I could be, but........."

Having accurately name the problem, and owned it as something I needed to address, the journey began.  Bu it wasn't until I worked through the whole process of the importance of loving myself as I am loved, that I began to really understand the freedom in doing what I'm supposed to do.

As I choose to love myself appropriately, I value myself enough to take proper care of myself.  Each action creating an equal and or greater reaction.  For once, I am not able to adequately put into words the impact of the truth that now surrounds me.  Perhaps it is because each person needs to discover this for themselves.

All I know is that I am no longer going to allow myself to be bound in the cords of wrong behaviors.  I choose to enjoy the food I eat, and eat appropriately. I choose to enjoy the fact that I am able to walk and take time to enjoy God's creation each day as I take the dog out for "our" excercise.

The baby steps are beginning to produce strength.  The journey is becoming easier.