I haven't been by in awhile.  January is busy- still recovering from the holidays and my eldest's birthday is on the 16th.  Just makes January fly by.

Anyway, I'm amazed that anyone comes by here and sees anything worth commenting on AND then even more amazed that someone actually comments.  I guess it feels like praise to be encouraged by others.  So, thank you to those of you who have encouraged me.

So... how am I faring?  Not as well as I'd like (I wonder if my IRL name actually means that?? I'm always saying that about myself), but there are still baby steps of improvement going on.  Temper stays in check more- so therefore the voice is getting reined in.  I'm not doing as much TS as I'd like because... well, because I'm tired and lazy, mostly.  Also, I need to work on a daily schedule.  If I fly by the seat of my pants, TSing seems to come across as punishment or boring or something.  So... I need to be more disciplined.   I've realized I'm the Queen of Procrastination Land.  Not a great title to have. 

The thing I've noticed about myself lately is that I swing between two extremes.  Wanting to not do anything... just hang out.  Avoid responsibilities.  Let the kids play by themselves.  Ignore things.  OR be superwoman and conquer it all.  The house looks great.  Meals are fab.  The kids are disciplined and trained promptly.

A dear friend said once, "You're nothing if not an extremist."  I hadn't realized it, but it's true.  So, I guess my prayer need to be for the LORD to make me realize that 1)I can accomplish anything superwoman-like ONLY through Him so toss that self-righteousness gig out the window and 2)it's ok to not do everything perfect all day because... well I"M NEVER GOING TO BE PERFECT!  (yelling at myself, not any of you readers).

I love you, Lord.

sooooo very much.

It amazes me that you love me.  Makes no sense really because You know the real me.  Inside and out.

Thank you.

Would you please snap me out of this funk.  Get my attention.  Draw me to your side.  Walk with me.

In Your Son's Name,

amen

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Posted by jmaecarlson

Sounds like you're learning about grace the way I am. I never really realized HOW MUCH grace means to me until I LET GO AND LET GOD. I am very much like you - the two extremes. But I'm slowly learning to let GOD change me instead of me trying to change myself. I don't use this as a ticket to be lazy, but I don't beat myself up over my mistakes anymore. I like reading your blog!! Thanks for sharing.

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Posted by SupComTabz

I've come to the conclusion that Christianity is living inbetween the extremes. It's finding the line that Jesus wants us to walk between being too much like the Pharisees and too much like the rest of the world. Think about it. We all know the difference between a sexual prude and a throw-it-all off person. But I believe God wants us to live in the inbetween. Celebrating love between a man and his wife, but guarding ourselves from anything that God does not deem apporpriate.

Too long I think Christians have fallen into the extreme trap. Extreme law-ful-ness or extreme liberty. It's hard to live in the inbetween.

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Posted by JesusIsMyRock

Just was doing the random blog and came across yours. You sound so much like me lol. I struggle in these areas as well. May the good Lord help us realize our priorities in life and help us be pleasing to him!

God Bless you my friend!

Hugs,
Brandie

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