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• Nov. 23, 2009 - Business, Holidays come see

Posted By mom Jae
I know its been a while, I blog somewhere else mainly now but wanted to share here With Holidays coming up I am working hard to get sites up and going totally! Its almost done! It is done enough for orders, I have product! So I am sending this to everyone in my address book, I hope no one is upset or offended. I wanted to make sure everyone I know sees it! So a few BIG announcements! #1 Between now and Nov 30th EVERYTHING is on sale! Take your pick free shipping up to 15 pounds! or 10% off any product or service! If the scent you want is not listed contact me, I may have it to do a special order! There is a gift section being set up, special packaging, wrapping available, gift cards also! All the specials are not on yet but working fast so check back daily! Also if its a product you know I have and you want email me and we can set up sale through email if its not listed yet! #2 December will bring many specials! Gifts and fun! Any suggestions? I'd love to hear them. If you are looking for something ask I may have it and its not listed, may be able to get it, I know I can fill your needs! #3 Anyone doing flyers and anyone who would like to start has more options now! If I print and mail to you its same deal you pick from cash back, discounts on product or service or............... I email to you the flyers and coupons and you print and cut and pass out, then you get same as other way plus! Depending on amount you do you will also get free products, free packaging, services or shipping! Your choice. If interested email me and we can talk specifics on amounts! Email Promotions! Yes available also! If you link to my sites in your emails and someone purchases product or service you get the credit also! So if you want to do that let me know, I will give you a code so I know customers came from you! You can put a simple link, a graphic, however you chose. I am working on an email graphic to use that I will share when done. Please pass this around to your friends, family, maybe even an enemy! My business email is ladyjae@essencethrutheages.com Web sites are up, almost complete, but orders are being taken and sent out. I would love to get orders early enough to egt them to you by Christmas! www.essencethrutheages.com for natural Home and Personal Care Products! www.renaissanceofnaturalhealing.com Most prices are on, I have no buttons to order on Renaissance. It is such a personal thing to work and help one with their life I felt for now I want you to just contact me, I will email you information for paying. So if interested in service let me know. "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 27, 2009 - Marriage ~ Faith ~ Testimonies!

Posted By mom Jae
Ok I have to share this. A friend who is struggeling in her marriage came across this. I know this lady from a support group I am part of. We at the group all have similar issues in our marriages, and are LDS. We can connect on a spiritual and earthly level while going through the struggles our spouses have brought into our lives. When I read I was deeply touched. It really made me think. And I wanted to share. You dont have to be struggeling in your marriage to have this help, or apply. I have learned so much from the support of these ladies. They are there, understanding my feelings at all times. I have included her thoughts as she read. I copied exactly what she typed. I did not want to take away from it by changing it. As she was reading it occured to her to interchange marriage or relationship with seed or tree. Read Alma 32 28 Now, we will compare the word unto a seed. Now, if ye give place, that a seed may be planted in your heart, behold, if it be a true seed, or a good seed, if ye do not cast it out by your unbelief, that ye will resist the Spirit of the Lord, behold, it will begin to swell within your breasts; and when you feel these swelling motions, ye will begin to say within yourselves—It must needs be that this is a good seed, or that the word is good, for it beginneth to enlarge my soul; yea, it beginneth to enlighten my understanding, yea, it beginneth to be delicious to me. 29 Now behold, would not this increase your faith? I say unto you, Yea; nevertheless it hath not grown up to a perfect knowledge. (or nevertheless it's still not a perfect marriage) 30 But behold, as the seed swelleth, and sprouteth, and beginneth to grow, then you must needs say that the seed is good; for behold it swelleth, and sprouteth, and beginneth to grow. And now, behold, will not this strengthen your faith? Yea, it will strengthen your faith: for ye will say I know that this is a good seed; for behold it sprouteth and beginneth to grow. 31 And now, behold, are ye sure that this is a good seed? I say unto you, Yea; for every seed bringeth forth unto its own alikeness. 32 Therefore, if a seed groweth it is good, but if it groweth not, behold it is not good, therefore it is cast away. 33 And now, behold, because ye have tried the experiment, and planted the seed, and it swelleth and sprouteth, and beginneth to grow, ye must needs know that the seed is good. 34 And now, behold, is your knowledge perfect? Yea, your knowledge is perfect in that thing, and your faith is dormant; and this because you know, for ye know that the word hath swelled your souls, and ye also know that it hath sprouted up, that your understanding doth begin to be enlightened, and your mind doth begin to expand. 35 O then, is not this real? I say unto you, Yea, because it is light; and whatsoever is light, is good, because it is discernible, therefore ye must know that it is good; and now behold, after ye have tasted this light is your knowledge perfect? 36 Behold I say unto you, Nay; neither must ye lay aside your faith (marriage), for ye have only exercised your faith to plant the seed that ye might try the experiment to know if the seed was good. 37 And behold, as the tree beginneth to grow, ye will say: Let us nourish it with great care, that it may get root, that it may grow up, and bring forth fruit unto us. And now behold, if ye nourish it with much care it will get root, and grow up, and bring forth fruit. This is the part that got to me: 38 But if ye neglect the tree, and take no thought for its nourishment, behold it will not get any root; and when the heat of the sun cometh and scorcheth it, because it hath no root it withers away, and ye pluck it up and cast it out. 39 Now, this is not because the seed was not good,(this is not because DH is no good) neither is it because the fruit thereof would not be desirable (neither is it becasue your marriage is not desirable or wont work); but it is because your ground is barren,(we planted in the wrong place...we started off wrong and have been going about it all wrong) and ye will not nourish the tree ( we don't pray together or read scriptures together or do anything but fight together...both of our faults), therefore ye cannot have the fruit thereof. 40 And thus, if ye will not nourish the word, looking forward with an eye of faith to the fruit thereof, ye can never pluck of the fruit of the tree of life. 41 But if ye will nourish the word, yea, nourish the tree as it beginneth to grow, by your faith with great diligence, and with patience, looking forward to the fruit thereof, it shall take root; and behold it shall be a tree springing up unto everlasting life. 42 And because of your adiligence and your faith and your patience with the word in nourishing it, that it may take root in you, behold, by and by ye shall pluck the fruit thereof, which is most precious, which is sweet above all that is sweet, and which is white above all that is white, yea, and pure above all that is pure; and ye shall feast upon this fruit even until ye are filled, that ye hunger not, neither shall ye thirst. 43 Then, my brethren, ye shall reap the rewards of your faith, and your diligence, and patience, and long-suffering, waiting for the tree to bring forth fruit unto you. I have included her thoughts as she typed them. I really liked the message you get by inserting marriage or relationship. This could apply to so many things in life. Our marriages especially. If we truly feel this way, act and treat our marriages as we do our testimonies can you imagine how they would grow! If the world treated their marriage that well, as such a precious thing marriages would not fail. People would work harder to save them, to protect them, to nurture them from the start. So often we take for granted, and we do not place it in as important a place as it should be. Celestial marriage is our number one goal as LDS people, yet so often we do not make a concious effort to save, improve, nurture our relationship, our marriage, our love. We should! I am printing this and hanging it on my wall as a reminder. I am also sending a copy to L. I know my marriage is not in a good place right now. But I pray for it daily, I pray for God's will daily, his guidance. I think making the decision to nurture my marriage is the best way to possibly save it. No matter what happens on earth I know I want the Celestial marriage, Eternal marriage. There is no way to have that with out nurturing and growing the relationship. I hope that you can read, ponder, pray and apply to your lives, you relationships, and marriage. And for those of you that have already done so- Keep on doing! "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 27, 2009 - What a week!

Posted By mom Jae in mom
Well we are moved, still not unpacked but its all here. I am beat! between fixing and unpacking and doctor appointments its been a long week. I made an attempt at fixing the hot water heater, fixed one of its many problems. And in the end a plumber came and put in a new one today! He was very nice, and fit me in right away without charging me extra! Unfortunately he has to come back to fix the tub! The pipe to it is plugged, we have hot water every where but the tub! I so wanted a long hot shower, but I will have to wait. I am however going to go buy an extra long shower hose that will attach to the bathroom sink to use till its fixed. It will be sometime next week before he can come back, I am not waiting! I still have a few other plumbing things needing done in the house, I am going to have him look and see what he will charge to do it for me. If its cheap enough I may just have him do it and save my hands! I have learned a lot through this but I think plumbing is not my thing! I do have to thank my BIL. He was awesome at helping me through the fix it job I did! Thank you B. I still think he should come finish it- I promise breakfast! We are almost all unpacked. Ok sorta almost all unpacked! We have lots less boxes. Unpacking all the books is like Christmas! I am finding books I forgot I had! I love it! And Baby E is so cute. She sings and dances as we unpack, and as she finds her favorite books. Its adorable. We are almost done getting all the school stuff out. That has been one of my main priorities. The kids have managed to do a little school this week, not much though. Next week they will be back to normal. Loo and Bubba have some testing to do. Boo may be doing some testing also. I took mom(Gma) to the doc this week over the aneurysm. He says he has never seen one rupture where hers is, and hers is small. But he also has only seen one other in the place where hers is, that was with in the last few weeks. If he were to operate it would mean breaking her collar and sternum. He says its not worth the risk. He does not feel she is at risk for it rupturing. I am not really liking the wait till it blows approach. I think a 2ND opinion is in order. I understand not wanting to take a risk that's not necessary, and her health as a whole needs to be considered but I don't know a balloon waiting to explode in your neck/head just seems kinda risky in itself! So we will see. Other wise the doc says she is good, aside from another blockage right below the aneurysm 90%. Don't know if they are going to unblock it or not, he did not say much. She will see the other doc this next week. So we will see what he says. The kids are doing good. So far most of them are liking the new home, the yard and space. Boo is still not happy. Bubba likes it, I think. Loo has made friends across the sorta dirt road. More like a driveway, at the house Baby E thinks is a play ground. They are nice people. She runs a day care and always has kids there due to that. They have not had much chance to go explore town yet. They have not been very co operative on helping so I made them stay home. Next week we will go to the Library and check things out around town. The therapist they are seeing knows the sheriff, she has suggested a field trip there. Sorta introduce ourselves, that way they know the kids. So if the kids are out during school hours they know why. So I think we will do that, maybe the fire station as well. I had to go buy a new printer. Mine was broke during the move. I picked up a 4 in one this time. Prints, copy, fax and scan. I am tired of paying Office Max for faxes. It does ok pictures also. So that was my 1 splurge outta the taxes. The rest is bills and stuff we need. I went to the doc, had the injection in the hip done. Hurts, wowie! I was not sure about getting it done again. But after the 3rd day the pain from it let up, and it actually hurt less than before! Enough that I decided its worth getting the next 2. So on the 5th I go in for the 2nd, then 2 weeks later a 3rd. Hopefully they help. I saw improvement from the one so I think they will. I am back to the Fentaynl patch. Its better than having to take a pill every 4 hours. I am still in pain, but its helping. And this time I am not falling asleep every time I sit still. I am going to go back to work. The doc still says no but I cant make ends meet with out it. Waiting for disability to go through is a joke. They take forever, and make it impossible to survive. I have really struggled with the decision to work again, I know I am not up to it, but I also know someone has to support the kids And I am it. Nanna is in "H" most of the time. Since she is working there, and going to school there She stays at her friends and comes home on days off. The kids are all keeping the therapist there also. We really like her, I think she is worth the drive. I love her attitude, the kids liked her from the start. I also like the new med doc. She pays close attention, feels like less is best but when something is not working she is not afraid to make a change! I like that. She was willing to give Nanna something fro her anxiety attacks, and changed a few things, adding a med for anxiety disorders. This was a very good thing. She also made a little change to Sir N's meds. Unfortunately the local pharmacy does not carry his med and I did not know till I came home. So tomorrow I am off to "H" to get it. I am also going to visit L tomorrow. Learning to use the wood burning stove to heat the house has been an experience! First I don't know what my problem was but I could not get a fire lit in that thing! I have no problem lighting a fire in a pit, but this messed with me. Call me weird, I know. The first night it went out real early. Each night after I got a little better and now well its warm enough inside to not need it! So I will be saving my wood, and buying more this summer for next winter. The heater upstairs is weird. Its effective. This little town is something. After my visit to the pharmacy I felt very strongly that I should continue to fill my meds where I already do. So I am keeping meds filled there, at least for now. The grocery store is small and very expensive. Not surprising, its a small town. Some of the people are very friendly, others not so much. Its got that small town feel. I think a lot of the people are the kind that only accept you if you always been here. Luckily I don't care! We made it to the new Ward Sunday! It was very different. The people were very nice! We were invited to dinner this next Sunday. So we will be going to someones home. I cant remember who. Terrible I know. Boo says "you expect me to eat at a strangers house, and you cant even remember their names?" "Yes sirree I sure do" We have not been to some ones home for dinner in a long time. It should be interesting. I liked the ward and felt pretty comfy there. I was asked by one person if my husband moved with us. I said "were sorta separated" she said "well that don't sound to final, that's good" I said "we will see" And that's as far as that conversation went. I figure we will wait at least 1 Sunday before jumping in there with all the info! See if they can come up with some good gossip themselves! Tried to leave Baby E in Primary, did not go well. They ended up bringing her to me, she sobbed herself to sleep. And continued to sob in her sleep for a long time. Made me feel terrible. I think I will give her a while longer before I try it again. Let her adjust. Maybe get her around her teacher more. The primary is big, so is the Young Women's! The boys enjoyed themselves in Young Men's. This week is Fast Sunday. I am fasting for several friends. I love fast Sunday. It will be different to eat with another family on fast Sunday. Have not done so in so long. I think since Ind Mo days! I have missed it. We did it a couple times when living in Utah. Not much though. Chubby went to Primary with no problem. He loves Primary though, and hanging out with other kids and people. Anyone that will let him talk for a minute. Sir N tried to refuse but in the end he went. He liked it also. I am so proud of him for going. Its been so hard for him in the past and we were scattered. He did not have his ear plugs but he still did great! He has been going with out them. Loo went, she liked it. She came home with the # of a girl in her class. She was excited to have girls in her class! I just realized its almost time for Sir N to be Baptized! 3 more months! Can you believe it! I would love to have family here for him. He is scared of the water. He says he does not want to go in the water. So I don't know how I will get him talked into it. I will be praying lots and I think some Family Home Evenings on it. And just keep prepping him till he is ready and comfortable with it. I cant think of much else to write. We have just been busy trying to settle in. Every box I unpack seems to find me 4 more! Every time I think I have all the books unpacked I find more. I still have not found my skillet. My crock pot broke on the move. So I need a new one. Tomorrow after my visit I am going to go hunt for one. Hope I can find one I can afford. So some of you friends and family write once in a while! We would love to hear from you! And Thank you again B for helping me with my plumbing adventure! Now come finish up! Bacon and sausage with sourdough pancakes!!??? I know I know, to far to drive. But I have to offer, I'll feed the whole crew! "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 19, 2009 - This weeks update!

Posted By mom Jae in mom
Hello every one! Well this is move week and its been crazy round here! We have had doc appointments along with trying to get ready to move. Mom got the results of her test for her heart!! LOOKS GREAT! So she will not have to have open heart like they thought!! Tomorrow she goes in for the scan on her brain to decide what to do about it, and she already has an appointment with the surgeon to find out what he wants to do. I went to my doc this week also. We are trying some new meds. One is a patch I have been on it before but had a bad reation. We found out the reaction was possibly due to the patches being part of a group that was recalled. So far they are helping, no bad reaction.!! Changed some other stuff also. I also had a cortizone shot in the tissues on my hip, OUCHIE! That hurt! Also caused more pain for about 24 hours, then it started to help. I go in today and get another in the hip joint. Not to sure about that. The other almost made me pass out. I fully intend on passing out today. I hope it works. My hip is bad, it will give out while walking, or catch and not move, and constantly hurts. So hopefully it helps at least a little. We have been packing, and thinning. I have sent stuff to people on free cycle! I have more stuff going. I have boxes every where! I am almost out of the boxes I managed to get, so I will have to get more some how. Yesterday we went to the new house and did some more cleaning and plumbing! I’ll post pics later today.I fixed the pipe for the washer! But found 2 more leaks. The one bathroom bext to the washroom leaks. He toilet leaks. The pipe going from the seat to the back leaks where they connect. I have to fix that or something. For right now the water is just off to it. The sink in that bathroom is gross! When you turn the water on rust and chunks come out. I don’t know if I will ever manage to drink tap water again after this! The hot water heater has a leak! The pressure valve ontop ;eaks where it is supposed to be sealed! it’s a small leak, but still a leak. I shut the water off at the hot water heater till I can fix it. I talked to GE, they told me how to fix it myself. I cant get it off though! I will try again Sat when I have some man power to muscle it off. I hope. The pipe that goes into the hot water heater also has a small leak where they connect. It looks like it can just be removed and then put back on. I talke to GE, they said to remove both, Teflon tape them and replace them and they should be good to go. I hope they are right. Otherwise we are without hot water till I get taxes back and can use it for fixing it. And I plan on that money going to other repairs, paying off my van and other stuff that is needed. The man that’s supposed to haul all the junk off has not done it yet. I cant wait till he does! I am already planning my garden! Trying to find a way to get a tiller, or at least borrow one. It looks like the neighbors near us may have kids. I see swings in several yards, and toys. So I hope that means there are kids close for the kids to meet. I know there is at least 1 home school family there! I have talked to her. Very nice lady. I cant wail till this move is over. I am so sick of packing and trying to get it all done. Maranda is not moving with us. She has some friends and is moving in with them. They will help keep her on the ball I hope. She is working and doing other things here. She did not want to move. Since she only has 4 months till 18 I decided to let her stay. Not easy to do. I did not realize how hard it can be to have them grow up and move out. Well I think that’s about it for now. I did take pics of my repair job! The removed pies- they were disgusting! And the stuff I get to try to fix next. Although I have been told someone is working on helping find someone that knows about plumbing to help me from the new Ward! I hope so! I’ll post pics later. And this will probably be the last update from this house. The computers will all be taken down tomorrow. We load up early Saturday morning. I hope the kids that don’t want to move accept it soon and adjust fast. They are having a hard time with this move. But I think once they get used to being out in a big yard, having animals- plan on chickens soon! They will be ok. So that’s all folks! I’ll be sending out new address and phone numbers as soon as I find the paper with the phone on it. Seem to have misplaced my phone book and planner. Love Jae "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 17, 2009 - What Makes you Happy??

Posted By mom Jae
So a friend on a board had this idea, post the things that make you happy! She wanted to do it to remind her when she is down of all thats good around her. So we made a list there. I thought I would share it here, I may even add to it as I think of new things. Since I have been blessed in so many ways the list could go on forever! so here goes good idea! ok here I go 1. hugs from my kids 2 kisses from my kids 3 I love you's from my kids 4 cuddle time with my kids 5 reading a good book 6 reading my scriptures 7 Attending Church 8 Going to the Temple 9. Knowing and remembering Heavenly Father loves me 10 accomplishing something that needs done 11 learning new things and applying what I learn 12 writing playing with my kids 13 park trips 13 summer breeze 14 smell of spring 15 planting a garden and caring for it 16 caring for flowers l7 knowing I have an eternal family 18 knowing there are people around the world- here and other places who truly care about me and my family 19 prayer 20 meditation 21 the smell of a new baby 22 new babies 23 baby toes and smiles! 24 cooking/baking 25 music- all kinds 26 the Atonement- knowing I can be forgiven for anything I do, and that others can also 27 family that cares 28 artichokes!!! 29 food in my cupboards,fridge,freezer 30 small food storage started 31 my new home 32 wood burning stove- save me money! 33 van almost paid off! 34 awesome doctors 35 sun shine 36 autumn leaves 37 fresh snow on the ground 38 working out 39 swimming 40 physical exercize 41 physical activities 42 photos! 43 receiving Blessings 44 familt dinners 45 Thanksgiving 46 Easter 47 Birthdays 48 Parties with the kids 49 Holidays 50 BBQ's 51 camping 52 hiking 53 cooking over a fire 54 watching stars with or without telescope 55 learning 56 knowledge 57 one on one time with each of my kids 58 talking to family 59 hearing from/talking to/IMing/emailing JJ, Sammy, Damein 60 forgiveness 61 love 62 smell of flowers 63 memories 64 service 65 knowing I helped another person 66 cheering someone up 67 being a friend thats all I can think of right now. I know there is more. but thats a pretty good list! So what makes you Happy??? share your thoughts "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 15, 2009 -

Posted By mom Jae
FEBRUARY 14, 2009 Did someone say I cant fix the dryer? na no one would say I cant right!? Cause if you did your so very very wrong! So the dryer belt finally broke! Just so happens we knew it was going to, so we had a belt here waiting to be installed. After a long battle with the dryer it finally surrendered and gave way for a new belt! I have the battle wounds to prove it was a hard fight to win! It is working quietly to prove I won the fight!!!!! I am the ALPHA! rofl! or should it be "I am woman hear me roar!" I had to use primitive tools (read did not have the right ones so I improvised) felt much like a cave woman must have felt at times when using a bone for a screw driver! I looked up directions on the web! They were not exactly accurate, but gave me enough info to figure it out and get it done! The new belt is much happier on the dryer where it is busy doing its job, instead of sealed in a bag, wondering its fate. I promise it will get lots of use, lots of love and appreciation also! Honestly I was pretty darn nervous. I had serious doubts as to weather or not I could take the dryer apart to get the new belt on. It was touch n go a few times. Most of my tools are at the new house, waiting for more plumbing work to be done! I did have to make do with what I could find. NOT EASY! I thought since I have written about so many things I have learned to do over the last few years I better write about this to! Its right up there with fixing my van! Learning to change a battery! Fixing the washer! and learning to plumb! Its been an interesting week for sure. I have learned a lot. This next week will be very busy. We will be sorting and packing more. I already have some done. But not all. I still have to go pick up the boxes that were given to me. I am also going to be doing some part time work I hope. I got this months gas bill! OUCHIE! it is unreal. $717.00!! Today being Valentines Day I made the kids dinner. Our new tradition is to have a nice dinner together. Usually something that Larry and I would have had together. This year we had steak, sauteed mushrooms, and baked potato. We made cookie dough ice cream for dessert! I was able to go see L today. He is doing pretty good. I am amazed every time I see him. He has changed so much, he is much more open with his feelings, and honesty. Willing to talk about anything, not clam up any longer. I went to the doc again this week. We did some med changes. I am back on the Fentanyl patch. We decided to try it again. Last time I used them I had a strong reaction, but have since found out the ones I had were part of a batch that was recalled. So trying that again. He also changed my muscle relaxer. The one I was on was causing migraines. And then I had a cortisone shot in my hip. OUCH did that ever hurt. It was worse than a hep shot! But it is helping, right in the spot it was done. He suggested another between my pubic bone and hip. He does not do them himself, it would be the pain clinic to do it. I want to wait and see how well it works before going through it again, decide if its worth the pain. At this point I am thinking it would be, and possibly on my shoulder also. The patch is helping also, and not knocking me out this time! I prefer the patch, its a continuous dose, but with out the "high" so many narcotics give. So I am functioning fine. The Muscle Relaxer is helping. But instead of making me sleepy it wakes me up and I cant sleep at night. So I cant take it at night when I need it most. But that's ok I will deal. I prefer less migrains. And they were getting bad from the Soma. Over all I am happy with the med changes so far. Its only been a few days but I am not sleepy all the time and my pain level is down some. Not gone, but that will never happen.But I can tolerate it the way it is with this combo of meds. I am changing blog spots. This one will be kept up dated for a short time. Or I may keep this one and have it only be school stuff. I am undecided so for now it stays now. new link is http://huffinfamily.blogspot.com/ there are pics of the dryer and I from our battle! and to keep up with our new home: http://fixinaswego.blogspot.com/ It time to get kids in bed Morning comes early and we have Church tomorrow! Drop me a note, let me know how life is! Keep in touch Love ya all!It time to get kids in bed Morning comes early and we have Church tomorrow! Drop me a note, let me know how life is! Keep in touch. Love ya all! "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Feb. 6, 2009 - Signed and have the keys!!

Posted By mom Jae
Yup you read right! I have the keys to the house! I took some pics! You cant see much from the pics. Wednesday everything will be on and I will go clean and get ready to move i! The kitchen carpet is UGLY! But there are some Tiles in the garage!! So it looks like I will be trying to learn to set tile. Larry will get a good laugh over that one! I have never set tile before so it should be interesting! I will have to get some tips from Larry before I do it.
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• Feb. 4, 2009 - ~~Buying a house!!!!!! Oh Ya Oh Ya! Happy Dance~~

Posted By mom Jae
Only this time I am buying! I have been talking to the owner and looks like its a go! Its an older home- very older, needs work but most I can do my self! Its on 1 acre! Has a chicken coup! A fenced in pasture! I am psyched! We will be in the country again! But not far from the town. Church will be a drive again- around 45 minutes. So that's a bummer but done it before I can do it again! The kids have not seen the house yet, they will sometime in the next week hopefully. Not sure of a move date yet, but am hoping for the 14Th. I am still having to come up with the moving costs, and not sure how I will swing that. A Uhaul would be the easiest way to move but that's $$ I don't have at the moment. If We try to do it in trucks and trailers from ward members I really cant see it happening easily. With 9 people to move its a lot of stuff. I will be thinning but still its a lot. But it will work out somehow! I am looking forward to having chickens again, and a big garden. Plenty of room! No neighbors 2 feet from me watching everything we do! The house has a big garage, and a shed. There are 3 bathrooms. And potential for 5 bedrooms. I will be doing some remodeling to the upstairs. It is currently an apartment. I will change that and make all the rooms bedrooms. It has a cellar full of canning stuff!!! A Dishwasher! 2 Fridges! so with the fridge I already own I will have 3! No more trying to cram it all in!! When I do my big shopping every month its always a hassle to fit it all in. Even with my deep freezer, I fill it all so that will be nice to have extra. The cellar will be a good shelter in case of a tornado! It has a wood burning stove!! Lower gas bill here I come! I am so tired of the $550 a month gas bill now, and we still get cold! It has 2 separate heaters, one down and one up. The porch is already stacked with wood to burn! It will finish out this winter with left overs. And there is lots of dry wood, trees down on the property that we can cut and stack for next year! I am excited, it is a little scary to take on the responsibility myself. But that's OK, life's like that. I have dealt with so much in the past few years by myself, things I never thought I would. I can do this. It will need painting badly, and new carpet in a few areas. I can do all that. The carpet I have never done but I guess I will learn. I do have to replace a pipe, and some plumbing under the sink ASAP. But its small repairs that I can do easy. Right now my biggest obstacle is getting our stuff there! I am praying on how to do that, ways to get the money I need for it. So far everything else has worked out. Kinda stumped now but I know the Lord will provide a way somehow. I just need to find the somehow. So thats our exciting news this week! We are moving! I am buying a house! And I am excited! When I go nect time I will take my camera and snap some pics to post! If anyone comes up with any great ideas on the moving let me know what you think! Moms heart prodcedure Monday was not able to make any repairs. they need to do further testing. One stent that was put in has partially caved in. And the aneurysm is right below an artery going to the brain, making it harder to treat. They are doing more detailed tests on the 10th and 12 to decide what to do. She is looking at a major surgery for the aneurysm and possibly open heart for that. We wont know for sure until the 3rd of March. Thats when she will meet with the doc over test results and decide on plan of action. So we are continuing to pray all goes well. Its in the Lords hands, hopefully he guides the doctors to know whats best. Love the Huffins! "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Jan. 29, 2009 - Another day another week, hey almost another month but not quit yet!

Posted By mom Jae in mom
Yup its Thursday! nanna thought it was Friday all day. Had us a little confused earlier! We met the new therapist again this week. The more we see her the more I am liking her! The kids like her and thats good. Nanna met with hers today again. She see's a different therapist than the rest. I have taken her advice and been looking more into a support group for me. That has led to LOTS of reading. Mom had a doc with the heart doc this week. She has to go back in again next Monday. They are checking the stents they put in, looking for another block and we found out she has an aneurysm the artery leading to her right arm. So they are going in with plans of intervention. But the doc has never seen an aneurysm in this particular spot. So he is researching to decide what to do. Its pretty nerve wracking. She has not been feeling to goo, fact is pretty bad. They not have her on a long acting nitro. She takes it every 7 hours. This Sunday is Fast Sunday, I am adding mom to my fast. Anyone who is willing please do with me.Or at least offer a prayer. Everyone else is ok.Larry received his discharge papers from SOTP!! It looks good. He will be able to have visits with the kids soon. He is excited, so are they. Boo is at a basketball game tonight. All of Febs games are home games! So I will get to go watch them!! He is enjoying the classes he is taking. Nanna is working with her tutor in math. Hopefully that will help her math, I think it will. She got the highest score yet on math due to the help. I thought that was nice. We have not been swimming or to work out for over a week. We have been passing this ick around and been sick. I cant seem to get rid of it. Its driving me crazy. I want to go work out and swim. I was starting to feel the benefits! Probably feel it better if I could remember to take my thyroid med. I got my new glasses this week! Wow I can see! I did not realize how bad my eyes were. They have a tint that is always there. Since my pupils wont restrict the sun hurts so I get tinted even in the house. They are driving Nanna nuts. She says I look like a stoner from that 70's show! I think I do without them, pupils all big all the time. She says I remind her of hyde, she has been watching way to much TV! I cut baby E's hair. It was long and beautiful. But it would get knotted so bad, she cried everytime we brush her hair. I was tired of it. I added new pic to the pics on here, The end of the slide show has the pics of her hair and the puppy. Who is about to be duct taped to the road!!! ok ok I wont but I will dream of it! Not much happening. With us being sickos we have just been home, doing school, therapy, and thats it. WOuld love to hear from some of you that read. Love ya all Jae and kids "There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."M. Russell Ballard~
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• Jan. 25, 2009 - ~~Reading & Learning~~

Posted By mom Jae in mom
I am reading some new stuff these days. I have found out that the LDS Church ha an addictions program! They have a book to go along with it! So I am reading it along with some other suggested reading. I figure the more I can learn about addictions the more prepared I am to deal with Larry. Hopefully I can put all I learn to use to help with our relationship, and to help with the kids relationship with him. He is doing his part, working hard at recovery, being honest and open with me. I want him to make it back to the Temple one day, for him to have his Priesthood reinstated, I feel I need to do all I can to support him in that. If he does his part and I do mine the Lord will do his and thats the most important. I still pray constantly over what to do. Still my answers are to stay. I have found a new counceling center for the kids! I think this place will do a lot for them. The therapist knows I have not divorced and do not intend on it and she is willing to help us all work through everything that comes up. They are a Christian based center. They have worked with other families with similar situations and had them be ok in the end. I feel like this is where the Lord has guided me. I visit Larry as often as I can, about every other weekend. He is doing good, or as good as can be considering. He has kept himself involved in therapy and classes to help him this whole time. I see a big change in him when I see him, when we visit. He wishes more people would give him a chance to show what he is doing, that he is trying. Its frustrating at times, these guys cant do it with no support from friends and family, yet most of the time they get no support. I have really learned a lot in the past few years. Things I dont want to know. But not only about abuse, but addictions, and the way people react. I have learned more about people judging others than I care to. The harshest have been thoe of my own faith, sad as that it. I have had more people turn their backs on me due to Larrys actions, due to my following my promptings than I thought possible. I still don't know what the future holds, or where the Lord will lead me, I take life one day at a time. I make no promises to stay married, to divorce, or ever live in the same house as Larry, I also make no promises I wont. Ideally we will work through all this, and with the help of therapists,prayer and Heavenly Father we can all find peace and healing and remain an intact family, eventually sealed together forever-again. Anyway back to my original topic here. I am reading LDS Addiction Recovery Program and Hold Onto Hope. I am also reading some articles here. I am posting these in hopes that maybe someone with an addiction, or someone who loves one with an addiction may read and find help, or at least find it in their hearts to forgive. I am not asking anyone to forgive Larry, you have to decide to do that on your own. But I know many that have relationships with others with addictions. Maybe you can find peace finally. There are support groups that are through the church. You can find them here. I hope you will read, pray and ponder. I hope you will find peace and forgiveness for those in your lifes that have addictions that have hurt you. Addictions come in many forms, they hurt many people. No matter what the addiction is, be it sex,food,shopping,drugs,alcohol whatever it hurts you and those around you. I know some reading this have hurts and anger from years ago. Maybe from reading you can let it go and find happiness. This is my prayer for those reading this. And Many people can do some of the things that lead to addictions and not have it be a problem. We are all different. My love and prayers to you all Jae ~"There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. The choice is different and unique for each mother and each family. Many are able to be 'full-time moms,' at least during the most formative years of their children's lives, and many others would like to be. Some may have to work part- or full-time; some may work at home; some may divide their lives into periods of home and family and work. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else." M. Russell Ballard~
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