Makeover

Wow, where do I start?  It’s been so long since my last entry that I feel overwhelmed just thinking about all the things I need to catch up on!  I actually did try to post something a week or two ago, and somehow it got blasted into cyberspace and never made it to my blog.  I really hate when that happens.   

So, I’ve been having a lot of things going on inside my head these past weeks.  Some good, some bad, but hopefully all of them will spur on something productive!  After weeks of nonstop action at our house and feeling exhausted and completely overwhelmed, I was beginning to really, really drag.  If it weren’t for the online co-op I am a part of, our schooling would be a total bust for the month of January and February so far.  The co-op is the only thing that has kept me on my toes and somewhat caught up, since I am held accountable to them.

But, even though I’ve been going through the motions with school, I haven’t quite been hitting on all 8 cylinders, as they say.  I know my children are learning, but I’m not sure that they are getting as much out of the units as they should be.  I’m talking about the character traits part of things – the really important stuff.  The unit we’re working on right now is Honor, and part of this unit involves building a small model of the tabernacle that the Israelites used.  It is a very important unit because it’s about learning to honor God and his holiness, while at the same time realizing that as insignificant as we are compared to Him, we can approach him any time we want.  It is about taking down the barriers between God and us.  How much more important can you get than that?   

I want so much to make this a big “aha!” lesson for my children!  But, I have had so much trouble getting past my own shortcomings in order to get them to that point.  The only point I’ve managed to make very well is that building a tabernacle is a big job and it takes a lot of work, which tends to make mommy very grumpy.  What I am realizing is that I have a major roadblock that must be moved in my own life, just like the curtain of the temple had to be torn in two.  I’m not sure yet what it is, but I know for a fact that something has got to give.  Whatever it is, I’m working on it and praying about it.  I’ve decided that I need a “Total Mommy Makeover” – and I’m not talking about new clothes, makeup, and a hairdo. I mean a makeover, from the inside out.   

This is what’s going on in my head…. I’m still trying to sort it all out.  I’ve got an actual notebook and pen that I’ve been brainstorming into the past few days, and have written so much that my hand is sore.  I just feel the need for change.  Maybe it’s spring fever?  Or maybe it’s a nudge from God because He senses the need for a change in my life, too.  I’m listening.

10:14 PM - Feb. 20, 2007 - post comment

Good stuff, Bev. :)

I like the you now, but I know God can always make things better.



- Sprittibee

Anonymous - 2:15 AM - Feb. 23, 2007

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Aww, thanks, Bee! :)

HomeForHeavensSake - 12:53 PM - Feb. 24, 2007

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