• Jun. 15, 2006
The End
O.K. ya'll. It is 4:30 in the morning and I am fixin' to get to the end of this long story. It's very fitting that I am wrapping it up today.
"No Christian is safe when his soul is lazy and his God is far from him. Every Christian is always safe on the greater matter of his standing in Christ, but he is not safe on his experience in holiness and communion with Jesus in this life. Satan does not often attack a Christian who is living near to God. It is when a Christian departs from God, becomes spiritually starved, and endeavors to feed on self-conceit that the devil discovers his advantage. He may sometimes stand foot-to-foot with the child of God who is active in his Master's service, but the battle is generally short. He who slips as he goes down into the Valley of Humiliation, every time he takes a false step invites Apollyon to assail him. Oh, for the grace to walk humbly with our God!" Charles Spurgeon
In January Jim had to go to Denver to take care of some family business. I was panicking being left alone for a few days so all I could do, and knew how to do, at this point was pray. The entire week before I prayed and prayed and prayed. Jim left and I started cleaning. Deep cleaning. And I started cooking, which hadn't been a regular occurrence the past months. Something happened when I started doing these things in my heart. It was a long weekend, but when Jim walked in the door that Sunday after coming from the airport the house was sparkling and there was a huge dinner complete with dessert waiting for him on the table. I will never forget the look on his face. It was like he had walked into the wrong house and all I could say to him is, "I'm back".
Those ten months were a very humbling experience for me because I knew that it was NOTHING I did to come out of my depression. It was the Lord in his kindness that lead me out of where I had been. Looking back now, I can see how that experience made me much more open to the new paths the Lord was about to lead us down.
In May, Rylie was born and let me tell you there were quite a few people who watched me like a hawk for any sign that I was slipping back into depression. But it didn't happen. Life was good.
In June my dear friend asked me to go to the home school convention with her. She said she really wanted my input with choosing curriculum and I kept telling her, you don't really want to home school do you?? Because of the last months and the struggles I had been through there was a new found humility that wasn't there before. So instead of saying no (since I didn't agree with home schooling) I said why not.
I was only there one day when I knew that this is what the Lord was calling us to do. We have been so blessed to have our children home with us and I thank the Lord for his calling in this area. I have been truly blessed.
So today I am off to Denver to attend the home school conference with the same friend that this all started with six years ago. This will be the first time we have attended with out one of us with a newborn or pregnant. Watch out Denver. I will also get to see three of my sister-in-laws who live in Colorado and home school. Life is good!! Thank you Lord!
