• Mar. 26, 2007
I suck

I feel like the worst mom ever.  My three year old, Eli, is a carbon copy of my husband so I have a lot of patience for him.  My husband and Eli tend to butt heads with each other.  Well, hubby is out of town for work and I planned this great day with the kids, but Eli would NOT listen to me no matter what and on top of that he would argue with me.  It all started out with something as simple as me saying, "Please go upstairs and get your socks."  Then all I heard was, "But..." and complaining, etc.  I seriously lost it.  He would not listen to me and I started slapping my hand on the banister to emphasize every word I was saying, "GO GET YOUR SOCKS!"  So then of course all of my children are scared, because do I ever do that?  NO!  So then they were crying, I was crying...and now I am just thinking what is my problem that I got so frustrated over that?  Yes, it builds up, but why did I even go there.  Is this going to be their memory of me for the rest of their lives?  Of course, I did apologize and we had a long talk, but I feel like I am just buying time until the next time I get frustrated. 

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• Mar. 26, 2007
re: Me and My 4-Year Old

Posted by mustardseed

I suck, too. Today I just lost it with my four year old in front of my other two children. I felt like the worst mother in the whole world. One side of me was saying don't lose it, he's only four and the other side of me wanted him to just be quiet. Needless to say, I lost it and was yelling at my 4-year old for yelling. Then suddenly I'm apologizing and he's telling me it's okay. He was sorry, too, and we made up. I had to apologize to the other two children, too, and tell them I was not behaving very well today. Tonight one of them prayed that the four year old wouldn't scream and cry tomorrow at school and I prayed with them that I wouldn't scream and cry back at him.

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