Jan. 28, 2006 - Patience
Will I ever learn this virtue? I try to stay organized by having a chalk board that needed items can be tracked on by the family. I transfer it to a list, erase the chalk board and then can't find my planner to know what meals we are having for the week. I spend forever looking for it, when one of my daughters tell me its in her room. So, I find the planner, but now I've lost the list...and it is no longer on the chalk board. I spend too much time looking for the list, so I decide that shopping wasn't meant to be and start deep cleaning my kitchen. I come to the basement (where the computer is) to relax, and under something I printed is my list. I finally find it 5 hours later. Sometimes, on days like today, when I walk through the house and see it in dissarray (it's usual state) I get the selfish blues. I just want to be a wife and mother, I just want to have a clean house and laundry ankle deep, I want to be able to cook and bake, I want to work on the house, I want to spend my free time doing what I want to do: drawing, painting, sewing, gardening, reading, working out, stamping, scrap booking, etc. I have to keep telling my self that there is a time and a season. I keep praying for inspiration to keep going. And I sing, "Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming, just keep swimming."
