Dec. 26, 2007 - Look What The Lord Has Done!
Look what the Lord has done. He healed my body, He touched my mind, He saved me (oh!) just in time!.....Oh, sorry, I got a little carried away there!
I'm so sorry that I've been MIA for over 3 months. Our world was completely turned upside down shortly after my last post. Just to recap....my husband (I won't be able to say that for much longer!) had left, filed for divorced, stopped paying child support, etc. with the goal of forcing me to go to work. During this time, we ended up with a big past due electric bill. Since the bill was in my husband's name, I called a different electric company to have service put in my name to avoid being disconnected. Well, long story short, they never connected us and never bothered to TELL US that they didn't connect us! I went weeks assuming I had this new service when, in reality, I still had the same service! Needless to say, our electricity was disconnected. Since we had a well, that meant no water either. Here we were--a mom, 4 kids, 3 dogs and MANY cats--without electricity and water. I thought maybe, just maybe, my husband would NOW feel badly and pay his child support. He didn't. He didn't shed a tear. He allowed us to go without and didn't give us a dime while he continued to live in "luxury" at his new girlfriend's house.
Everything seemed hopeless and I thought about just giving in and going to work. That's when I felt God say "Are you going to trust me or are you going to let him (my husband) control you with fear and anger". I was determined to trust God and I told Him I wouldn't do anything unless HE tells me to do it. So with $10 to my name, I took my kids and went to stay with a friend while I waited on God to show me what to do next. That was the most overwhelming time in my entire life! I remember my son asking me "Mom, what are we doing tomorrow" and me responding "Don't worry about tomorrow, each day has enough trouble of its own....so for now, let's just think about what's for dinner and go from there". I couldn't even THINK about the next day or even the next hour! I could only focus on the NOW!
There have been many "scary" times since then and several times I've considered going to work. But every time I "decided" to just get a job and get it over with, God has told me "Are you going to work because I told you to or is it to 'show' your husband, or is it because you are afraid you won't 'make it' financially? Every time I got the "urge" to go to work, I had to admit it wasn't because God was leading me, it was because I was afraid and/or I wanted to show my husband I didn't need him or his money. I knew God was calling me to trust him and not try to "fix it" myself.
Fast forward to today (otherwise, this will become a book!) and you would just stand amazed if you could see the way God has provided for us (as if you don't ALREADY stand amazed at Him!). God has used my family, friends, homeschool support group, new church, and even a church I don't attend, to provide for me and my kids. We have now moved out of our house (not completely, but most of the way) and are living in an apartment down the street from church. One of my friends has "temporarily adopted" our dogs so we wouldn't have to give them away. (Many of our cats have run off but I still need to find homes for the others). My dad is driving from Florida in less than 2 weeks to give me his old car because the van is going to be repo'd. I've had many people (especially those in my homeschool group!) just hand me $100-$200. There are SO MANY examples I could give you to show how God took care of us! And I didn't even have to get a job to "help God out"! Every time things got tight, God put in on somebody's heart to give me money. It's been awesome to watch my husband come to the realization that God is providing for us just like I told him He would the day he walked out. (He doesn't say it, but I KNOW he sees it!)
Well it's dinner time, so I gotta run. Come back soon, I have lots more to tell!
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