May. 12, 2009 - A Wasted Day

I had so many things I wanted to accomplish today, but just could not seem to get myself going.  I tried and I tried, but I just could not motivate myself to do anything.  Have you ever had days like that? 

All around my home, everywhere I look, I see "evidence" that I've worked outside the home for the last 9 months.  My life is in total chaos and is in dire need of some organization.

Usually when it gets this bad, I go into "avoid" mode.  It's easier to just ignore everything and let my mind wander off into another (much more peaceful) world.  Sometimes I do this by reading, watching tv, talking on the phone, etc. but most of the time, my "vice" is the internet.  There's so much to do online that you can spend hours and hours there and never get bored.

To combat this "addiction", I decided that tomorrow I'm going to "ground" myself from the internet.  I'll allow myself a few minutes in the the evening to blog but other than that, nothing.  No e-mail, no FB, no chat room, nada.  To be quite honest, this will be a struggle for me.  I might even feel like I'm going through "withdrawal".  But I need to break myself of this bad habit and learn to use the internet as a tool instead of a "fix".

So until tomorrow evening...

Laura