Let's start with Thursday, Australia Day. Had a lovely day, rang my friend and found out that the dog she had had for over 12 years, had died and it may not have been from natural causes. He was a seet thing and it was sad for everyone. Friday. Glen gets a call to go to his Mum's something is wrong with her dog. He was nearly thirteen and very overwieght but it was still sad that he had to be put down. It was also the 2nd anniversary of her dh's death so that didn't help. Friday evening. Glen brings home all his Mum's dog things and throws the fresh meat bones to Beau (our dog). We are talking inside and all the boys come running in (or so we thought). Glen closes the back door and the next thing we hear the strangest growling bark and Titus was screaming like crazy. Glen took off and brought Titus in with blood covering half of his face. I don't think I have ever been so frightened. We rushed him off to hospital. Thankfully he just needed to be cleaned up and the dr didn't think he would put stitches in as they would give him more scars and the wound seemed be sticking together okay. By Sunday Titus looked like he had gone a round with Mike Tyson. His right eye was black and blue and swollen. There are scratches all around his eye and a tooth mark in his head. There is a massive bruise on his arm with teeth marks in that too. His arm is still hurting him a lot. If it still hurts at the end of the week I will take him to the dr. So needless to say, Beau is no longer with us. It was really sad to see him go because we have had him nearly five years and he has always been such a wonderful dog. I realise now though that I put way too much trust in him. He is just an animal. A dog with instincts and I shouldn't have trusted him like I did. I was attributing human qualities to a dog and that is so wrong. He also wasn't fixed so I have a feeling that would have played a part. So I have learnt a few valuable lessons. Always make sure I know where the kids are is a biggy! And never trust a dog around children. They are animals (the dogs not the kids!).

So it has been a very tiring few days. We did get to go to a friends birthday on Sunday which was lovely. The boys had a great time. As soon as Titus saw the food he wanted to where he could wash his hands . At least one of them is learning proper hygiene!

I had a bit of a 'feel sorry for little old me' today. I am getting so annoyed with myself. I lack consistency and it affects every part of our lives. Putting them in school is just not an option though. The Lord showed me that very clearly. It would make a hundred more problems and wouldn't solve the underlying issue of me getting my butt into gear! I was doing a lot of praying and reading of my Bible and I really felt God's strength. Not quite sure of a plan of attack yet but I will let you know!

Anyway this is me waving goodnight! I'm hoping there aren't any spelling mistakes as I can't be bothered going back over this and my spelling is shocking tonight!

Jen:)