Hey ya'll  

I was looking at some of the other peoples blogs and saw some of their poetry...and I decided that I wanted to put some of mine on! =) so here you go.....

Hiyo everyone,

This is my first blog, so I thought that I would just write about something that I am currently going through....and I am sure most of you can relate.

God has been showing me a lot throughout my holiday break.....You see, I liked this guy. And It was becoming kind of a problem because I didn't realize it, but I was kind of putting him in the place of where God is supposed to be.

So I went to one of my good friends from church and asked her what I should do. She told me to go to one of the leaders at the church, so I did! And boy was I in for a surprise!!

We had Sunday night prayer that night...so during that I came up to the leader and asked if she could pray for me and this issue. So she did. And after that, we decided that I needed to talk to this guy and tell him what was going on. So I did....and I thought that he would think I was stupid and that he wouldn't understand and would make fun of me for it....but he didn't. Things turned out fine, and we are pretty good friends now!

But I still liked him.....and I didn't realize this either, but I was slowly but surely starting to change on the inside, which started to come out on the outside. Another one of my friends from church came up to me one Friday night and said "Wow, your insides seem different!" It confused me a little at first, but then I understood.

So she said that we should sit and talk so we did. She helped me a lot! She explained my situation way better than I could! She explained it like this...."God is going to give you good meal someday. He wants you to stay hungry until then.......but Satan doesn't want you to have that meal because he knows it is good for you. So he tries to give you candy bars that look like they would taste better than that good meal waiting for you. He makes them seem like they will be filling and that they will make you happy....but in the end they are going to make you sick, and make your teeth rotten! The guy that you like right now is kind of like a candy bar....He looks good, and seems like he is worth putting off your "main meal" for, but God is saying "Hey, wait! I have a meal (or the man I want you to marry) waiting for you! If you eat that then you aren't going to be hungry for what I have for you." And you can either listen to that or not....If you chose not to then you will probably get hurt, be broken, and wont have anything left to give, except a broken and torn heart.  If you chose to just say "Hold on one second God....I just want one taste of this over here." And after that taste you are still hungry so you just keep trying to fill yourself with those candy bars (other guys) that are just making you sick and not hungry for your meal. It is like throwing your heart before a pig and saying “Come chew this up!” God doesn’t want you to give away your heart until the time when you are going to meet the man of your dreams and the one God has chosen. He wants you to guard it and keep it safe, and not let anyone take it from you!!!!”

She is such a wise young woman and a great friend too! But she really did a nice job explaining things and making it easier for me to understand what I was doing and that it was only hurting me!!  I am still on my way to getting back where I should be with God, but I just thank God that I am learning about this now, instead of after I made the mistake. That is not to say that I won’t make any mistakes in this area. And even if I did, God would still love me the same and still want me and all of that, but at least now I have learned some more about this subject to help me later on in life.

I hope you like it, and if you have any questions or comments I would love to hear them!!

I’ll keep you posted! Luv ya’ll,  *~Jessi59~*