By: Jessica Armstrong Date: 4-22-07
Breakdown
Totally torn
By the force of the storm
And the things that I know they wont help me no more.
I try to be perfect
That I wish you could see
But the harder I try
The more you seem to ignore me.
My heart is so weak,
I try to be strong.
I’ve held on so long
But right now everything feels wrong!
Why is it that when I try to come in
You seem to push me away like we weren’t even friends?
I’m so confused right now I just want to break down, break down and cry!
Cry the tears of my heart that are pouring inside,
Cry the tears that I’ve kept in trying to hide!
No one understands the pain of this rough and lonely ride
So why do I even try?
You seemed to want me at first
But now I feel cursed
Things aren’t the same
What the heck changed?
Was it something I did?
Was it the way I behaved?
Is it my fault or have you gone astray?
I don’t think it’s fair that all I did was be there
And now when I’m around you its like I’m not even there!
I feel you don’t want me
Or for that matter even need me!
It makes me want to hide so that no one can see me!
I’m so confused right now I just want to break down, break down and cry!
Cry the tears of my heart that are pouring inside,
Cry the tears that I’ve kept in trying to hide!
No one understands the pain of this rough and lonely ride
So why...why do I even try?
Today you walked by
Tears filled me eyes
As you grabbed your book bag and didn’t say hi.
You said we were “best friends” that one time
But now I just feel that you’ve pushed me aside!
Out of your way, no longer important
Pushed to the side
Beaten and broken!
Why did I leave my heart so dang open?
By: Jessica Armstrong Date: 9-06
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My life is like the busy streets, always running full of things to do. My heart is like the waves, crashing before the day is through. Burdened so heavy I just want to cry, these huge tears swelling up in my eyes. I’ve tried to stay strong and I’ve tried to hold on to the hope buried deep in my dreams and my songs. But the harder I try the steeper I fall, into the sea my all and all.
I want him so bad! Why I can’t he see? I just want someone to be there for me. The harder I think the clearer I see why he can do so much better than me. I’m not all that pretty , I’m not all that smart, but I want him to see what is here in my heart. I want him to know, that I want to show my affection for him just grows and grows! But every time I try to speak, all of the words in my heart grow weak. I know I should try, but I know I might cry if the rejection is to hard to take. I’ve already been hurt I don’t want to make all of the same mistakes. So I will try to move on and I will try to stay strong but I know I am to weak to just move right along. So I’ll need someone’s help and I’ll need them to say “You are beautiful in your own special way.” I need someone there to pick me up when I am feeling down. And I need them to say “Just how was your day?” and to always be around. I just can’t wait till the day that I say “Oh what A friend I have found!” But until then I’ll just sit with my pen and wait and write until the end….
By: Jessica Armstrong Date: 4-22-07
Jealousy
See the girl in a ball
Up against the white wall?
‘Course you don’t!
No one does
But that’s only because
You are blind
You can’t see
What I feel next to me
It is dark
It is cold
It is called jealousy!
The pain builds up as I am trying to be
Just like her and less like me.
Amounting to nothing
The dieting won’t work!
Starving herself so much that it hurts.
Still unhappy with the way that she is
Striving for perfection
Just to be his!
He say’s “She’s so pretty and oh she’s so smart!”
And that she is the closest one to his heart.
And she probably is!
But what I would give to be his!
To have the place that no one else goes
To know the things that no one else knows
But why dream about things that you can never achieve?
Why try to be someone that you can never be?
I see the way
He doesn’t look at me.....
but I havn't finished the last one so do you all have any ideas for what I should say next?
well thats about it.....please comment me and tell me what you think!!! Love you guys,
Jess
