[URL=http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/stellarkart/procrastinating.html]Procrastinating by Stellar Kart[/URL]
So I've been procrastinating. Yes, I'm a genius at that. How long did it take you to figure that out? Probably this long, because it's the one thing that I really dislike talking about. 
But I've pretty much been TRYING. I really have. NOT to procrastinate, I mean. Well, on some things, anyway. I've been focusing really hard on finishing up the script for the second movie Elya and I are making. We've finally gotten it planned out, and the third is in contemplation plot, and the first is... uh...
We haven't finished writing that one yet. Or even planning it. Mainly because the second movie was originally going to be the only one. The first is a prequel. The third is a sequel. And for some crazy reason, IT WON'T END. We kill off the girl who is sort of like Emperor Palpatine, the girl who's somewhat like Darth Vader, and her good twin brother, paralyze the leader of the good guys, and let the other pair of twins live somewhat of a normal life... and there are still three people who decide to take over the world after all of it's settled! Which happens to be the characters my sister and Elya's two younger brothers are playing.... I'm 'Vader', she's one of the other twins... 
Don't bother trying to understand. I still get dizzy when trying to explain it!
Well, tonight dad thinks he wants to go to the same church we went to last Saturday. I have no problem with that.... well, I do. It was a great church. I wouldn't mind going there. But I made a commitment to the church I go to. I signed up for a summer class there, because I pretty much got the go-ahead from the parents. I made a commitment to God that I'd stick with that class until it was over. Last summer, we were going there, but we didn't come back until December that year for some reason. I have people who get worried if I'm not there, I have friends who are there, I have enemies that I still need to get over being enemies with. I can't just disappear, because the majority of the enemies happen to be seniors that won't be there next fall. But I'm not ready to switch churches yet... nowhere near. Yes, it's true that I still have problems at church. I don't speak up much, and when I do, it's normally out of my mindset and then it gets me in trouble. I'm not going to pretend I'm going to miss it because I was so happy there. Because I wasn't. I was unhappy, and scared, and miserable. Don't ask why I kept going. I'm so stubborn. But I was taught a few important lessons. I learned things. I was unhappy, scared, and miserable at Tae Kwon Do too. But it was home... for the same reason this church I go to is. Don't ask me what I'm thinking. I don't know and can't tell you. I may just be scared of how comfortable I am at this new church. I actually made a friend there based on who I was. Just the first day too... I don't know... But I can tell you one thing. I'm not so sure I want to go back.
Comments
Aug. 31, 2007 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Katartismosacademy
Sometimes the Lord asks us to do things "Because I Said So." When He does that, you gotta just do it and put those feelings at His feet and leave them there.
When I was a kid, I thought "Because I said so" was the single most lame phrase ever to waft from my mom's mouth. But, most of the time I did whatever it was, not wanting the repercussions of whatever would happen if I didn't. As a parent, I try not to rely on it with children who have already proven their ability and willingness to obey without question. It does get used more frequently with children who are disobedient or only wanting to obey "if" the reasons suit them. But I think there is a point when "Because I said so" needs to be enough.
And I think God works that way sometimes, and I think parents would be wise to get kids used to the idea that they might not always know the why or agree with it in order to obey. We might not know why He wants us to stop associating with this person, or mend fences with that one, but if He asks us to do it, we need to just do it.
Aug. 31, 2007 - Untitled Comment
Posted by Katartismosacademy
PS - your least endearing quality is procrastination, but you come by it honestly.