writing on the walls

Jan. 6, 2008 - i don't even know most of my songs on my ipod

soooo i hae no idea where i'm going with this post. At all. And that's just what's wonderful about it. =D Oh yeah. The V doesn't work on the keyboard. Unless i hire an elephant to step on it. That could be pricey mhmm. So i JUST looked up Demon Hunter lyrics and MAN they were depressing. But its ok. Because you can't even hear what the dude's saying anyway! HA! I love demon hunter. They should get happier though. Buahaha.

so anywhoways. i've found i have a sliiiiight problem. I'm too happy. Yes. Too happy. That's a good thing, yes, but sometimes, it just isn't. For example. These past few weeks hae brought about some depressing movies to watch such as The Christmas Shoes. Did i shed a tear? Yes. Over laughing so hard. I'm bad. And then...someone i know is going through a REALLY hard time. So she's trying to talk to me. And all i'm thinking about is how badly i want to go outside and run in circles around a tree. Climb it. Eat it. I don't understand it. I have serious issues with this. So do you people think its wrong to be so happy?

..and more rambling is to be done here. My church, peoples, is a pile of cliques. They go off to thier own little parties at their own little houses and exclude whoever they want to. Which is usualy me. But i don't care. I don't wanna hang out with them anyway. What i really can't stand are the people who are...like your best friends but then they go and leave you out of things. Isn't that nice. Thats my church for you. CYO's a very nice place though. Not a clique to speak of and the most un-popular people become the most popular. Love at CYO WOOT

speaking of CYO...today's prayer meeting was AMAZING AHH. A lot of people there who haven't been there in ages. Like Jessa...but i saw her at the library the other day. And Josh who i haven't seen in like...months so i was like "O_O!!! ZOMG". Other than the prayer meeting itself, all i really did was play ping pong with manders. Dramatic stuff, ping pong.

yeah. Then chatrooms. Are AH-MAZING. I go completely insane. here's a few examples from last saturday's chatroom episode (iamconfused23 is me, kelvinowns is CK DUH...though i don't think he's in this conversation xD, m3wzyk is ziny, awgeezitspatrick is patrick. Or Patweak. Or Patwak. Or Watwak. Or whatever CK came up with that i can't put in HSB xD)

M3WZYk (5:43:40 PM): patrick..place yourself in an oven

M3WZYk (5:43:41 PM): nao.

I am confused23 (5:43:43 PM): my small stomach ish ful

M3WZYk (5:43:52 PM): so i can have some arm..

I am confused23 (5:43:57 PM): o_O

M3WZYk (5:43:57 PM): with veggies

I am confused23 (5:43:58 PM): arm?

I am confused23 (5:44:01 PM): O_O

M3WZYk (5:44:03 PM): yes, i want my f00dz

AWGEEZitsPATRICK (5:44:07 PM): XD zin

I am confused23 (5:44:09 PM): PATWEK ARM?!

M3WZYk (5:44:21 PM): :-)

I am confused23 (5:44:23 PM): ITS GENIUS!!!

insanity, i tell you

Jan. 8, 2008 - Untitled Comment

Posted by SeaChel

I think that it's great that you're so happy all the time! I wish I was...the only problem is with the whole friend going through a hard time thing. Wish I had some advice for you...but I don't. Sry.
Yeah, I hate cliques!!! Two years ago I was the most sad and alone girl in the Youth Group. Every week I'd go to Youth Group (mostly just for the lesson and the game) and every week I'd come home and cry because no one would say more than "Hi", even my best friends. It's gotten better, thank goodness, somedays I'm still a bit alone, but most times I'll be able to actually talk with people. I just wish that cliques didn't exist!!!
O,o Wow, interesting conversation...

~SeaChel