Fading In This Black And White World </3

Jul. 4, 2008 - I LOVE GUMMY BEARS!!!!

lol..ok this is a video of me trying to sing the gummy bear song!! Its so funny...hehe**

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Jul. 3, 2008 - Pull The Trigger And Get It Over With...

so this weekend is the 4th of July!! *woot woot* i luv fireworks so muchies! hehe* they r so fun...except my poor doggie totally is scared by them so she hides under my mom's bed for like a whole week! lol so sad...jk ya so i have no idea what else to write so...umm hope you guys have a great forth of july!!

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Jun. 22, 2008 - You've Got Your Gun To MY Head

hey how is everyone?? im great..lol...anyway just thought i would update my blog so people will actually read...umm lets see...im going to chicago in about 3 weeks...because my uncle is graduating NAVY bootcamp....:] i cant wait i so miss him.

my brother is leaving for church camp this week...YAH!!!! lol....he cant even sleep he's so excited..XD which means ill probally be hanging out with my friends 24/7 this week...:] lol...and here is a pic of my bestie mckenzie...i luv her so much!!!! we were acting stupid..but i luv this pic..:]

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Jun. 12, 2008 - My Hands Are At Your Throat And I Think I Hate You!!!!

well how is everyone?? im good....i went shopping the other day and i got 3 shirts. they are so cute!

Oh ya and i got a letter from my uncle who is in the Navy! i was so excited...:] i was jumping up and down. its was kinda funny..lol...anyway....he said hes doing good...and cant wait to see us! i miss him so much...:*[
anyway...thats pretty much all that happened...ya i know boring..lol.....l8r!

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Jun. 6, 2008 - Oh God I Hate The Me That I've Become

MOST POWERFUL EMAIL I EVER GOT

i had on new clothes,

new sneakers on my feet.

i was there for class on time,

went to the back and took my seat.

Yeah, im moving up,

im already grown.

soon i'll be graduating,

and out on my own.

i talked to some of my friends,

we were all having fun.

said some things i shouldn't have said. did stuff i shouldn't have done.

i knew i was different....

i felt God touch my heart,

i knew i should set a standard,

but then i'd be set apart.

walking to the bus, i was not looking for strength.

i heard the car tires screeching,

but now its to late.

i'm standing in this room,

and i can see the heavenly gate....

oh no! i never prayed.

I thought i had time to get it straight!

an angel walked to me,

he had a book in his hand.

i knew it was the book of life, when would this dream end?

i told him my name,

and he began to look.

then he looked at me sadly and said,

your name is not in this book.

angel, this is a dream,

no, i cant be dead!

he closed the book and turned away,

he whispered - you cannot

proceed ahead

no.....no this can't be real,

angel, you can't turn me away.

let me talk to God,

maybe he'll let me stay.

he led me to the gate,

Jesus came to me.

he did not let me in but said,

Beloved what is your need?

Jesus, i cried, please,

don't cast me away from you.

tears ran down his face and he said,

you knew what you needed to do.

Lord, please im young,

i never thought i would die...

i thought i'd have plenty of time,

death caught me by suprise.

Lord, i went to church,

Please Jesus, i believe.

he said you would not accept me,

my love you would not recieve.

Lord, there were too many hypocrites. they weren't being true.

he took a step back and asked,

what does that have to do with you?!

Lord, my family claimed to be saved, they werent real you know.

he said, I died for you,

now i have to go.

i fell on my knees crying to him,

lord, i planned to be real tomorrow.

i couldn't make Him understand,

i had never felt such sorrow.

then it hit me hard, i said,

lord, where will i go?!

he looked into my eyes and said, my child you already know.

please Jesus, i begged.

the place is so hot.

it seemed to trouble and grieve him, he whispered, DEPART FROM ME I KNOW YOU NOT.

lord, you're suppose to be love,

how can you send me to Hell?

he replied, with you mouth you said you loved me, but each day you rejected my salvation.

with that in an instant, day turned to night.

i never knew such torture could be, now too late, i know the bible is right.

if i can tell you anything, hell has no age.

it is a place of torture.

separated from god and full of rage.

you know, i thought it was funny, a joke, but this one thing is true.

if you never accept jesus christ, HELL IS WAITING FOR YOU!

so please, ask him into your heart.

please show this to everyone you know and care about!

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May. 31, 2008 - I Dont Know Whats Worth Fighting For....

again i dont have a freakin clue what to blog about.....umm my friends sister just graduated....and my friend i think went to ohio today...i miss her so much..:[ umm anyway here is a new pic of me and nicole if you look really close you can see the purple streaks in my hair...XD

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May. 25, 2008 - Scars Remind Us That The Past Is Real....

well again i dont know what to write about so here are some new pics!! hope u like them...:]

me and my friend nicole..she looks so cute in this pic...:]

i love this pic...love is real.....lol...my eyes are so blue...:]

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May. 24, 2008 - You Gotta Love Yourself Before You Can Love Me......

well i have no idea what to write about...umm....ya nothing really exciting has happened lately...um i went to the movie swith my friend mckenzie...ya...that was a lot of fun!! lol....here is a pic of me and my friend JJ...shes so freakin awsome...lol...XD

i luv this song its by as cities burn-empire........2 listen 2 it u have 2 turn off my music...:]

i have got no idea what else to write so i think ill post one of my poems..yup im gonna do it...lol....i hope u like it...:]

~~WAKE UP LOVE~~

is it real i want to feel it

breath it----

taste it-----

be it----

but love is just a word it cant be real

a word used to often, then it lost its appeal.

but its here, its hiding from everyone

it wont come out until were done-----

fighting, cheating, useing it without care ----- love wakes

can you feel it, seeping through your lungs

can you taste how sweet it is

be careful not to use it to fast, its only begun

love is fading away again, what did we do?!

love is gone---- replaced with something new

i cry as i watch you think this fake love is real, come back love we need you

love you the only thing that knows how to heal, our broken hearts, our messed up lives

but you dont come back, you say you have to go

its the only way, is all you say.

so ill be waiting love, till the day you return

and ill tell them youve left, but they will never learn

that to see the real love, you cant believe in the fake, because your putting real love again at stake!!

so what do you think?! tell the truth..lol....:]

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May. 16, 2008 - I Can End The Planet In A Holocaust

well i dont have anything to blog about right now but i will tomorrow...im going to this youth confrence and then after everyone is going to this gocarting place after...so i think its going to be fun...i will take pics...since i always have my camera..lol....btw here are some pics that i like...:]

and another dumb video..lolz....of my brother...trying to sk8board...lol

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May. 14, 2008 - This World Will Never Be What I Expected

well to day i got up early!!!! OMG....i know thats not like me lol....my uncle left 4 the Navy...ya i know i said he already went but right before he was going to go they said he couldnt go because he split his head open like a week before so he had to wait till now....but yes he is now on his way to Chicago for bootcamp. *cries* i will miss him...but we get to see him after bootcamp....in like 3 months.

here are some pictures and a video of his swearing in.

All the people going to bootcamp...

There he is...my uncle David...lol hes all red...and nervous

Him with his BULLET STOPPER(bible)

Eating...ok i was kinda bored...lol

What he gave me before he left....yes a paintballgun!! i have always wanted one so bad...now i got one.

I love it so much!!

This truck is so cool....lol....ya i know random

And my new poster...i luv family force 5!!! they r awsome

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May. 13, 2008 - I Fell Off The Face Of The Earth.....Wait, The Earth Has A Face?!

If you have noticed I havent been on in like a while....i fell off the face of the earth for a few weeks.....and some of you know why...lol...but here are a few pics of what i did while i was not on earth...jk....hope you like them XD

these are all saying from songs and PARANOIA is my favorite word ever...lol

our church had a food drive......

new pic of me...not sure if i like it yet

me and my friend nicole

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Apr. 19, 2008 - You can only move as fast as Who's in front of you

well i got an award from the amazing tofast4u14.....lolz...btw thanx shane...:] here it is...

so...i am going to give this award to 4 people...

umm....

screamochick1.....

FABLEBOY......

EyesonAslan...

JaredBaize....

XD.......

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Apr. 18, 2008 - As far as where I fell Maybe I'm better off dead Am I at the end of nowhere Is this as good as it gets?

today i went to the Detroit Institute Of Art...its was pretty cool...:] here are some pics hope you like them..:]

this thing scares the crap out of me...i would freak out if i was being chased by it...lolz...O_o i might have nightmares now...ugh...sry if this scares u too....

a bone graveyard...i think this is so cool....and kinda creepy...lol....

i luv this...the balloon is so cute..:]

this one is sad looking...he's all alone..:[

this is crazy..its like a deathbed...O_O

i thought this was funny.....this is the only thing in the museum that you can touch..lol

these chairs are awsome...XD

so what do u think? lolz...hope you liked them...XD

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Apr. 15, 2008 - I Thought That I Could Change You But You Changed Me.....

well of course nothing exciting has happened lately..lolz...so here is a video of my trying 2 play and sing a song called EVEN ME WORLD....i think it sounds kinda bad....i guess it doesnt help that i was sick trying to sing....lolz...not a good combo...:[ plz....tell me what u think!!!

so what do u think? ya i know its not rly good...:[

well screamochick1 told me about this pretty cool site called HISHOLYSPACE its like a christian myspace....well sorta...lolz...but i do have one and if you make one i will add you....so im kinda trying to tell you to go make one...:] this is MINE but you have to be one of my friends to view my profile...sry...hope u get one...:] and if you do leave me a msg...plz...:]

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Apr. 14, 2008 - You want to see me disappear? Well, so do I

here are some new pics...hope u like them.....lolz

yes this is my arm...lol.....but love is rly awsome!!!