Posted in Spiritual Life

God has been doing a work in my husband, in my family, and in my own heart over the past two or three years.  It is amazing what God can do in a heart that is yielded to Him.  It is an unexpected work that is at times very exciting to be a part of.  I have watched my husband's vision for our family grow in ways I could never have imagined.  While this is truly thrilling, it is also quite scary at times.  I am a person who likes to plan ahead and to know what to expect, and many of the things God is doing in our hearts at this time have unsure results.  We really have little idea at this point what exactly God is calling us to and where it will lead, and so it is very hard for me to trust God and wait for Him to lead my husband. 

To have a God-given vision, purpose, or calling can at times be very lonely as well.  It is somewhat isolating to begin to think in new ways about things, especially when you realize that some of the things you assumed you were right about you may have actually had wrong.  A deep desire of both my husband and I is to think Biblically, and we are coming to realize through careful study of the Word of God that some of the beliefs we have held dear may not have been as close to what the Scriptures teach as we had once thought.  God has changed our thinking in many areas, and it is suprisingly freeing.  It is such a joyful thing to hunger for His Word, asking Him for wisdom and direction, and to learn and grow from reading and living that Word.  It is sweet to see the affect of this in our family life and in the individual lives of our children.

I must admit, at times I have fought against what God is trying to do with my husband and me--mainly because of fear.  I have asked God why, wondered at His wisdom in working in this way with us, and wished to have a break from all the learning and growth.  Growth and change can be painful, especially if it involves personal sacrifice or turning from sinful habits.  It is not always an enjoyable process.  What I have recently come to realize, however, is that it is a wonderful privilege to be used of God to bring about a work for Him.  As earthen vessels, we are greatly honoured each time God chooses to use us.  And so, I have resolved that instead of fighting against God's plan, I will embrace it with my whole being, joyfully following wherever He leads.  After all, He knows the end from the beginning, and my life could not be in better hands than His.

I do not know where this present journey will take me or my dearest loved ones.  I do know that I can not fail if I trust in the Lord and allow Him to finish the work He has begun.  It is a good work, of that I am sure.