Mar. 26, 2008 - Rambling
DH does not have to work this week so yesterday we spent the day with the kids riding around looking at outdoor playsets...dh is planning on building one for the kids, he figures it will be much cheaper than buying one. So today he took apart our old swing set and saved the parts he thought we could use on our new playset. Jonah (3 months) and I went to the church this morning to work on VBS. I am the director at our church and I am having a brief meeting with all of the volunteers tonight. I have not been able to get focused on VBS this year...so I thought I would take today to sort through all the materials we bought...tonight I will give the volunteers their material. Zoey & Jonah are down for a nap and dh has Chloe and Noah over at Mimi's helping them do some yard work, so it is quiet around here for a little while. It is so nice having Toby home this week.
Do you ever wish you could just get organized enough to do all the things you wish you could do on a regular basis? I want to do journal entries with my kids and record their memories as well as mine, but it seems like the days just pass by and by and we never get the important things done. I fear that the kids will be grown before I ever get around to getting the important things accomplished everday. I want to make memories with my kids and really enjoy them while they are soo young and cute. Instead I feel like I am always trying to figure out a better way to deal with things, and I am in the never ending cycle of not know how to train my children. Don't get me wrong, I have a hard time with training my children, but the children are not the probem, I am the problem, the way I train and parent them is the problem not my children. But in mist of the day and the problems it feels like it is the children who are causing the problems. I have to just keep telling myself that I am the one that needs the work....I just pray that God will set me straight so I can get on with life and enjoy my children for the precious little people God has created them to be....oh if I could just get me under control so I can start doing all the wonderfult things I have up here this mind of mine.
Often I think of myself in this light: I get so upset with the children when I have to tell them over and over and over the same things....don't do that...go do such & such...I said don't do that...Obey me right away...on and on, but you know what that is exactly how I am with God, He has to do the same things with me, He has to tell me over and over and over, and I just don't seem to get it, it just does not seem to sink in...sometimes I think I can hear God saying "didn't I tell you to get up ealier and your day would go better, but you did not listen"...or maybe he says "didn't I tell you to spend time with me daily, but you refuse to listen to me"....but you know what else, I think He is much more gentle in telling me the same thing over and over, than I am with my children...isn't that something to think about?
Well, Zoey is awake, and Jonah is wanting to Nurse, and Noah needs a bath before church, so I better listen to the gentle voice telling me "get off the computer"!!
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