May. 3, 2008 - Rambling
I enjoying reading other blogs and anything I can find online to read, but I just can't seem to make time to blog myself. I really need to make myself blog more often, just so I can look back at my own life and see how things are change in our day to day life.
Jonah is 4.5 months now, and he is such a wonderful blessing. He has the cutest smile, I think he smiles more than any of the other children did at this age. He loves to look into anyone's face and just smile and smile!! He is a people person, he likes to be held, but oh how he loves for you to just look into his eyes...and when I take the time just to look into his eyes instead of just meeting his NEEDS, oh what a blessing I receive. Oh course when I just spend a few minutes letting him look at my face, I see the joy in his eyes and feel guilty that I can't or don't do it more often. He is truly a blessing!! And to thank I cried when I found out I was pregnant with #4!! How could I have ever thought that having 4 children would be too many for us to handle. It is amazing how God works...Jonah brings so many smiles into our family and I can't imagine life without him!! I love that little boy to pieces.
Chloe is going through a whinning stage again....I don't know what it is about whinning but it drives me bannas!! I wish I could make her understand that a normal tone of voice would help her a lot more than whinning. Oh the other hand I am enjoying teaching her and seeing the light bulb come on everytime we do a little school work. She is going to be 6 in July and I can't believe how fast she is growing up...I kinda wish she would slow down, but I am starting to see all the help that a older child can bring the family. She is the leader of kids, and whatever she does, everyone else follows. Chloe loves individual attention, and I need to give her more of it!! Sometimes I can just see the disappointment in her eyes when I come down on her so hard, it really is not fair to her. I do come down on her harder than the other children, I think because she is the leader and I know that whatever the other kids see her do they will be right behind her, but I need to lighten up and have a meek and quiet spirit with her, I need to take the time to just sit and hold her while there is still time. She has recently told me that she just wants me to sit and hold her, there always seems to be so much that needs to be done, and I have good intentions of hold her and showing her the love she wants so much, but time goes on and on, and the bedtime comes and I realize I never just sat with her and enjoyed her for the blessing she is!! So I pray that in the days to come I will just take the time to sit and hold her, while she still wants me too...
Every day around lunch time, I get to the point that I have had enough, and I just need everything in the house put back in the proper places, so I start running around picking up and putting away and trying to get my house back in shape...well usually I do this while the kids head off to another room to destruct, but lately, the kids have started staying "this house is a wreck", and it is always about lunch time, and they start cleaning up their messes around the house. So I have been seeing improvement, now they are not like this all day, just around lunch time...but it sure does feel good!! It is like the house gets to a certain point and they can see that it is not a happy place to be with everything all over the floor where you can't even walk. My kids play hard in the mornings and drag out all kinds of stuff, destroy the house pretty much, but they are so into playing and lovin it, and I want them to enjoy themselves, I hope that when they grow up they will remember the freedom they had to play, and remember that mommy let the house be messy sometimes. And as long as they are they there to help pick up all the pieces I don't care if my house is a told wreck for a few hours everyday!!
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