In Christ Alone!

Just Some Last Minute 19 YR OLD Random Thoughts

Hello Darling Friends,

If I may call you all darling. haha My birthday is tomorrow and I'm attempting to be in my bestest mood. *sigh* Yes, it was another long day/week AGAIN, but such is MY life. hehe

On a flat note (to get it out of the way) I haven't been feeling well. It's not like I'm sick, I'm just more "sick and tired." If you know what I mean. Sick and tired of a lot of things. I don't know if I could point them all out however. Lack of finances, procrastination and too many interruptions resulting in being late on my third writing assignment, coming in contact with people that take advantage of you, insecure & immature teenagers, lack of guitar practice..... those are just a few that come to mind. But I'd rather not dwell on such depressing stuff right now. I have an hour til my Birthday DAY starts. And as many of you probably know, my favorite days of the year are my, and other people's birthdays. hehe Ok... moving on.

Speaking of birthdays there have been a TON this month! On the 25th, Saturday, one of my best friends turned 18. She is so great! Anyway, her awesome brother who is.... 22 now I think.... for a birthday present to his sister, took her flying (along with their other sister, 20)! How cool is that? Having your brother take you flying day of your 18th birthday? Anyway, he let her hold the wheel and all for a while, she said it was a bit scary but a lot of fun. Then he played around with them (his sisters) ...... flying it up at a rapid speed then doing something that shut off the engines (or something, can't remember exactly) that caused the plane to give the roller-coaster effect.... and immediately the plane began going almost straight down. Her brother said she freaked out and was like slapping him and screaming, he said it was great! haha

Another best friend of mine (Kezi) had her birthday on Sunday, the 26th. She turned 20 also!!! Whoo Hoo! Monday, we (Me, Kez, & another Stephanie.... who is another best friend of mine) ate out at a beautiful Tea Room to celebrate mine and Kezi's birthdays. (They paid for my meal..... THANKS!!!) It was so awesome. I took pictures and I'll try to post some later, but I'm to tired to worry about that now. It was great fun! We went to the all-so-famous Walmart afterwards and did what girls do best. (If you don't know already, it's for your own good. HAHA)

Then yesterday was another guy's 22nd birthday. I forgot to call him, but it's ok. I haven't actually seen him in...... too long. (All the more reason to wish him a happy B-day I suppose, but.... oh well.) There have been more..... my sister was the 5th, uncle was on the 4th, another best friend on the 10th, another awesome lady on the 9th, another wacky lady on the 24th, and another guy's 20th birthday on the 31st! Whoo.... it's time for some CAKE! haha

All who vote the year 1986 is the BEST!!!! Say Aye!
"AYE!" said me.

I like know so many awesome friends born that year. It is so sweet! And cool! And fun! And awesome! And ...... it just makes me smile! haha I'm so obsessed with the love of birthdays. I can't wait to have a family of my own, then I'll have a husband's birthday and lots of beautiful children to add to my Birthday collection! HAHA I'm waking up... oh dear.

Speaking of children, I wish I could have some while I'm still young. But, that requires (according to my standards and beliefs) a husband first. And before he's my husband he'll be my fiance'. And before he's my fiance' he'll be my very Best Friend! And before he's that ...... well I have absolutely NO idea! haha I die to know every day who it is. Crazy? I'm sorry. I just want to marry early, have a bunch of kids at a young age, and then raise them and finish growing up with them. My Mom and I are so close I KNOW we share a brain. Neither of us function well without the other in some way or another. LOL And I want my daughters (and sons, gotta love the boys too) to be very close to me. And to love and respect and honor me like I do my Mother Dear.

But dwelling on THAT everyday isn't exactly what God has in mind for me, I know. So patience gets well used day after day after "lonely" day. I can't really say lonely. Like I mentioned above, I have more interruptions by darling siblings than I can count! It's bitter-sweet. hehe

So alas, I never thought it would be, but I'm about to be a 20 year old single young lady. haha Without even a single prospect. I'm too picky. That's what I keep telling myself. Then I think .... No! .... There IS someone out there that is waiting for me, and someday we'll meet and ....... ahhh! haha (If you're laughing, be quiet. A girl has a right to dream a little. ) Anyways, I'm blessed with many friends and family that have kept me from being the pitiful lonely single young adult many become. And Praise God for filling the emptiness in my heart, daily. Without Him in my life, I know I would go crazy! "Thank you, Jesus!"

Hmm, I'm guessing this is getting pretty long. And I'll be surprised if anyone reads all of it and actually gives me a worth while comment afterwards, but these are my last words and thoughts being 19. I'll probably end up submitting this after midnight, and I started a while ago, but I'm just having fun writing this in a slow, thoughtful, dreamy state.

I wonder if I'll get any birthday emails, or cards, or phone calls, or even if someone will message me tonight/tomorrow? How much do my friends love me? j/k Just because I'm obsessed with birthdays doesn't mean YOU have to be. But returned favors always mean more to the person who gave it in the first place. (in my opinion)

I love music. I am so obsessed with music. I watch people sing well and I just get excited. I watch people perform instruments (mainly... guitar, keyboard, bass, drums, & violins) well, and I get even MORE excited. I used to cry when we sang as a family for people, or as a church special or something. But now? Wow have I escaped my once oh-so-shy box. I LOVE singing! In front of people, I don't care. Last Sunday I was in charge of the whole music side of the service because Pastor was ill. It was so sweet! Anyway, amongst other heart touching songs that our ensemble did and that we led ect. me and my sister Anna (16) did a duet special just before the service. We sang the song "Breathe" and I played my acoustic guitar. It was SOOOO Lovely! We'd barely practiced so it was pretty natural, but being sisters we did awesome. I was so excited. Standing there, singing for the glory of God, with my sister, playing my guitar, seeing the smiling faces of my mom and other dear friends and church family members...... Ahhhhh!!!! I must marry a man in love with music as well. That is a must that I have yet to find in so many guys I meet. *sigh*

I suppose I should stop writing now. I will be utterly shocked, surprised, and thrilled if anyone has made it to reading it this far. haha

Hmm.... I'm not sure what my very last words should be. No pressure though, 20 hopefully won't hit me TOO hard. All my "already 20" friends say it's pretty much no different. But, for me it's going to be different. 20 is half of 40 ya know. (Thanks to one of my youngest siblings pointing that out for me.) My brother wrote "Steph's 20... OLD MAID" on his calendar. How nice and considerate he is, isn't he? LOL *I'll just keep laughing*

Ok. By the grace of God I will live til I'm 100, and this is only a fifth of my lifetime. And by the patience and love of Christ I will grow into the best Christian .... follower of Christ .... that I can be in the rest of my lifetime. And by the love, support, prayer, encouragement, and kindness of all my friends....... I will become an even better single young lady throughout this next year of my life. Hopefully I will leave all sources of procrastination behind me and focus hard on what is solely important in my life. God! Family! Friends! Music! Income! Writer/Author/Published! and many more.

Thank you all, I love you all, God Bless you all, and have a great week! (I may not post for the rest of this one.) Adios! Ciao! See-ya!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

5:49 PM, Mar. 30, 2006 .. Posted by heartofvirtue

Stephanie Dearest!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my dear friend!! Have a SUPERB day, darlin'! Let's talk soon, k? K!!

Myklin

Happy Birthday!!!

9:03 PM, Mar. 31, 2006 .. Posted by PinkFlamingo

Yes, I did read the entire thing. :-) And was amazed and smiling as I read at how very much alike we are!! I will be 20 in September (yay for 1986!) and I'm also still single. I don't think it's that we're too picky...just waiting for God to bring along the right person. That's my view of it anyway. I too want my husband to be my best friend -- even before I know he's going to be my husband. And I don't want to give my heart to a bunch of other men before him.
Okay, I could get carried away and talk about that forever, but I won't. :-) I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday and share how amazed I was at how alike we are. (I also love to write and want to publish)
Let me know what being 20 is like. It seems a rather big milestone to me. ;-)
Love, Ashley

Happy Birthday Late!

7:24 PM, Apr. 1, 2006 .. Posted by JacqueDixonSoulRestES

Happy Birthday! You share my Dad-In-Law's birthday. And, I think the year 1986 is pretty wonderful, but only because that was the year I graduated!! LOL!

Anyway, thank you so much for visiting my blog. I was very happy to list you as a Friend. I am always looking for good friends - Godly examples for my daughters, 16, 15, and 12. And, from your profile and blog, it looks like you would be good for them to have on their Friends' list. If you didn't already, visit their Blogs! SuperAngel, Jocelyndixon and rjdjohn316.
BTW, does your Mom have a Blog?
Well, Many Blessings! Hope your birthday was special!
Jacque

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10:07 AM, Apr. 8, 2006 .. Posted by TNMOMTOMANYBLESSINGS

I wanted to wish a belated birthday,
I hope that your were greatly blessed on your day.
You seem to be a very special yougn lady. I am sure the Lord has many wonderful things in store for your life.
Blessings,
TNMOM