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Last week my sister told me that our sister in law had been ill with pnumonia during Christmas week. Our relationship has been broken since my brother died - one of those "she thought I thought" things.
Well, the thought crossed my mind that I should send her a 'Get Well' card and try again...
make the first step in reconcilation. I got the card, wrote the note, got out my address book but the page with her address was missing. I figured I must have thrown it away after several tries of contacting her that had been met coldly [I was justified, I thougt- one hand can't clap! right?].
I thought I'd just get her address the next time I talked to my sister as they had shared a bond she and I had never managed. Well, I have talked with my sister several times since and never once thought of the address.
She called this morning to tell me Betty had died last night -- not from the pnumonia but when she was hospitalized they found cancer! No details were given about anything -- funeral arrangements, etc. I did send flowers this afternoon...
I regret I hadn't mailed the card last week - she may have never thought of me over these past years at all; but it would have been better if she had known there were no hard feelings from our family. None of us had any of the hostile feelings she expressed to my sister. When I told my sister it was untrue she replied, "I'm not going to get into it."
There was really nothing to "get into"... We made attempts to contact her, at first she was rather cool and distant, then ignored our calls and cards... So we let it drop. Our lives went on , never crossing her path in any way -- it was like she never existed.
It;s too late now, I missed it -I know it was God was nudging me because she has not come to mind in a long time.
My desire is to learn from this and when I have a "thought" to do something like that I will not be stopped by an little hindrance!
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