Hey out there in blogger land!  I'm sorry that I haven't been posting regularly. 

I want to let all my friends know that I am suffering from severe depression and something called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  It hasn't been pretty.

I want to make it perfectly clear that this depression is NOT due to homeschooling.  I get many people who say "put your kids in public school and you'll feel better!"...but what they don't realize is that homeschooling is the best part of my day.  It's hard for people who have never homeschooled to realize that.

Most of you have seen pictures of our home:

We have done much work on it...as you can see here as we laid the sod.  Well, due to hubby being laid off for months, and 2 knee surgeries he had...we are losing our home.  It would take a miracle from the good LORD to change that.  We are supposed to be out in November.  We are trying to work with the bank, but they don't seem willing to work with us.

This has led to a lot of depression and several melt downs from the PTSD.  See, I was homeless 2 other times in my life before my marriage and this is really scary to me.  I don't know what we will do.  Hubby has a job now, but it doesn't pay enough to make our house payments.  We simply cannot keep up with the interest rate right now.

I've also had bronchitis that contributes to depression (I'm on bedrest), also problems with my epilepsy leading me to not drive until this is under complete control.  I am on anti-depressants, and they are helping...but I don't feel like I am being a good enough mom or wife or person.  This is tough to deal with.

If any of you out there suffer from depression, please email me through the site or post (if you feel comfortable) and let me know how you got through it or are getting through it.  I don't have family, so I could really use the support.  My mom died when I was 14 and I have no contact with my brothers.  After foster care we just lost touch.  So my support system is gone.  I could use some words of encouragement right now.

I love you my friends!

LadyPoet33