Nov. 9, 2009 - Struggling
Well, I guess I spoke too soon about being on the mend. I've had a rough couple of days. Yesterday I tried to do my normal morning routine and got extremely faint and dizzy, to the point of wondering if I actually would pass out. I also had another quite serious breathing episode. I had a breathing treatment, took a hot bath (with an older girl in attendance to make sure mommy was Ok) and went to bed. We briefly talked ER, but I'm thankful I didn't have to go as I'm sure ER's are CRAZY right now.
I am not sure what is wrong but will go to the Dr. today just to rule out pneumonia. My chest does hurt when I take a deep breath. Maybe I'm just achy and exhausted from this flue and need to take it easily. Kevin is taking off Monday through Wednesday for sure, and I have instructions to do almost nothing. I find when I am up and about things get bad fast, but when I rest I'm pretty much Ok.
This is driving me batty, but I guess there is a lesson to learn. I've always been focused on accomplishment. I have a strong work ethic, and while that is good sometimes, it can be carried too far. I realize that part of my problem is that I feel useless when I am not "doing stuff". Reality is, I am just as valuable in God's eyes and my family's eyes when I am flat on my back as when I am bustling around getting 35 things done before 10 a.m. That is one aspect of the gospel, isn't it? We all have value and worth regardless of our "works". I know that intellectually, but emotionally I'm tempted to feel like a worthless blob right now.
Oh, kid update. Naomi, Isaac, Joseph, and Miriam seem close to being Ok. Angela and Lydia still have some residual issues. Lydia's foot has been hurting for a couple of days. She probably sprained it, though we don't know when. If it doesn't improve in the next couple of days, we'll have to take HER into the Dr. A couple of years ago she broke a finger and didn't let us know; we figured it out a YEAR LATER. WE don't want to make that mistake again, but on the other hand it doesn't seem like she could have broken her foot.
Well, this too shall pass. Thank you all for your continued prayers.
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Nov. 9, 2009 - Prayers
Posted by Sheila
Sheila
