Tonight my heart is heavy for my son.  He is in that preteen stage where he doesn't seem to fit anywhere.   He's no longer a little boy (but wishes he was) and not a man (which sometimes he thinks he is !).  Why is junior high so hard socially?   He is having a hard time right now fitting in with friends at church.  He has 2 friends he really loves (yep Heather one of them is yours!=) Most of his friends are a year younger and so a lot if time he is alone in jr high with either a bunch of silly girls  or the older kids he doesn't really know.  He feels he is ignored.   And if he's not being ignored he's being teased about his short size.  (He hasn't hit his growth spirt yet).   Sigh.  I had a heart to heart with him about it all last night.  He was actually in trouble for bad behavior.  He's been behaving rather rudely to all of us lately.  But it brought out so many things that I am actually grateful for the bad behavior now.  I have had a hard time with respecting him lately.  Also, Mike and I have been arguing over things we shouldn't in front of him.  I realised last night that he is feeling horrible with his friends and not supported  or feeling connected at home.  Which...btw...is a rotten combo for future problems.

I am praying and praying for wisdom to do it all right with him.  I have made so many mistakes.  I know some of his low self esteem issues stem from choices I've made in the past.  If you think about it...say a little prayer for my searching son...and his sad mama.

Blessings,

Laurie