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wild (but not uncultivated) musings of a Canadian unschool momHome | Archives | contact Facing Burnout10:02 PM - Feb. 6, 2009 - Add to the Wildness
I was going through some family videos from last year, from our cross-country travels. It was a really neat stop, but I wondered why I'd picked such a dark, introspective song as background for the clips. Then I remembered how I'd been feeling just before we left. I also remember feeling the same way the year before. It's not the kids, they're great. It's everything else. We've been living in a renovation for nine years, and this winter's been the worst. We are literally without half our house right now, all crammed into the north end as we do major repair to the south end. It's the church. That's nothing short of a travesty. I feel lost. We made it our home and our heart, and it's become a black hole that just keeps sucking more and more out of us. When it got to the point where the children were showing signs of hurting from it, that was it for me. But I don't know where to turn to go forward. It was very much my tie to other Christians and to my small-town community. It's the job. We never know for sure whether Dave's going to be home or not, whether he'll still be working in the same part of the plant from one day to the next. They're deliberately and chronically understaffed, and they treat their human resources worse than the machinery. After all, the machines cost money. But they can always hire another person at no extra cost to them. I'm constantly restless and irritable. I often find myself feeling trapped by the place where I live--the remote location, the house and yard, the people. I'm just waiting for March. At that time, David and I will be done with our full-time church commitments. After that, maybe I can begin to breathe again. We made plans. We want to take the family around to different towns, doing gospel music. We want to start a non-church, Bible-based project that focuses on the Word and feeds the starving, sick congregations we keep encountering. We want to get back to encouraging and uplifting. As it stands, the people we have loved won't accept it from us. I think the best cure for a broken heart is to seek God's wholeness. ------------ © Copyright Cathi-Lyn Dyck 2005-2009
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