Oct. 16, 2005 - Lovely Loneliness and other Ramblings
Yes I love to be alone sometimes. Often times really. I love the quiet sounds. The hummings and tockings and whirrings of silence. Now complete "dead" silence is nice for a short while only. Too much of it and I start to feel like I should be "doing" something. I sometimes ache for quiet during the day. My Judah is a talker. His favorite thing to do when we go to the park is introduce himself to every adult there. I was afraid of adults when I was his age so this baffles me. I met a woman from my homeschool support group who says she was an adult lover when she was a child also. She says for her it was an attention getting mechanism. It seems, honestly, that Judah has the lionshare of my attention most days due to my current obsession with "making sure he is learning". Forwarning: Unschoolers please don't take offense to my honest attemt to understand your style. Here goes... Unschooling seems a bit irresponsible to (or should I say for) me. That is only because I know my natural tendency to be off in my own world. Monitoring an unschooled child's mental progress seems an impossibility to me. I have not done any research on this but I have a christian mom friend who chooses this for her to teenage daughters. I think maybe I will make a new entry on my exploration of different styles of homeschooling. Well the "silence" is lulling me to sleep. Thanks for listening.
