HA HA ! ! ! ... That was a laugh! I really like my little blog, but I'm starting to wonder if I should just give it up ??? But then again . . . in a way . . . this is who I am . . . like it or not . . . Just like the year has it's season . . . so did I . . . HA HA ! ! ! ... my seasons are just a lot shorter . . . Oops  did I "say" that out loud ?!?!

I did want to write more today but the timing is so bad . . . I have one child who is singing Oh... Oh... Oooooohhhhh... another one at my legs asking, "Us going bye-bye!" and my oldest can't find socks!

I can't say when I'll write again . . . 'cause . . . ummm . . . that's the way my life is . . . I've learned to take life day by day . . . now it's time to allow God to lead my every minute.

O.k. since it is very clear to me that I'm not a daily blogger... (I am a very quiet person unless I really have something to say)... I have decided that I will try... TRY... to at least post once a week and Tuesday seems to be that Day. I still have lots to do on Tuesday but I'm least stressed, for now that is!

I'll be praying about my blog, what to write, what to share and I am hopeful that God will inspire in me a desire to open up my heart to all who will listen... until next Tuesday.

Dear Heavenly Father,

     It seems like such a silly thing to pray about, but I have a passion to write. I also have a passion to continue this little blog of mine but most of the time I don't know what to share. Father, I pray that You will fill me with the Holy Spirit to inspire my passion. Father, I ask that You will fill me with the Holy Spirit daily. Father, I know that the Holy Spirit dwells within, allow me to take a step back so that I may allow the Holy Spirit to do Your will. Father, I confess, that I am selfish and think of myself only. I ask for Your forgiveness and Your strengh to walk in the light. I ask to be humble. I pray that You will lay Your protection over my family and myself. May You guide me to close the doors to the evil one. I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen.

     O.k... Where to start???  I miss this little blog of mine!!!

  I'm really not sure what this entry is about... I am clueless about what to write... but I do know that I want to get back in the habit of writing a little something every now and then, hopefully my entries will be more frequent and consistent. I'm not giving up on my litle blog I've given up too many of my hobbies to give up this blog also.

  I do have plans for this little blog of mine... I have plans of sharing my day with anyone who is willing to "listen." I have to warn you though this blog is not for the person who likes everything sugar coated. Yes, I have good positive days, but at the moment my struggles outweigh the good (or at least in my eyes). I don't mean to rain on anyone's parade, but I'm tired of putting on my happy face when I'm not so happy. If I can't be honest about myself or my life then how else am I going to get help when I need it. Or better yet, how else will I be able to help and encourage others, if I can not be open and honest.

  I know that I'm in a spiritual warfare right now; I've been in one since Nov 2005 maybe even longer. My plan and hope for this blog is not to discourage anyone but to encourage. I used to avoid people who never had anything positive to say and who were always looking at the glass half-empty. I could not stand asking anyone, "How are you doing?" and thinking, "I hope they don't give me a list of all the negative things in their lives." I'm a negative person who wants to be surround by positve people (hoping their positive energy would rub off on me)! The more I tried to avoid negative people the more God put negative people right in front of my face! I think I've gotten a little wiser and now know why God keeps putting negative people in my life.. God wants to open up my eyes and realize they're not the ones with the problem.. IT'S ME! This might not make sense to anyone but me (that's o.k. I'm used to it..hehe)!         I keep hearing God tell me, "Don't hide; be who I designed you to be." What peace that brings to my soul. The Peace of God, the Peace of knowing I can be myself, the Peace of knowing I don't have to hide, the Peace of knowing God loves me the way I am. This doesn't mean there is no room for change or growth.. spiritual growth that it.

It just means be who God wants me to be.

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that You open up eyes so that I may see what You see. I pray that Your will be done in my life. I pray that I will live my life to Your glory, Father. I confess that I am so ungrateful. I ask for Your forgiveness, Father. You have given me so much and I deserve so little. Humble me, Father. Change me. Guide me. Help me. Protect me. I ask for these things because I know that without You I can do nothing on my own. Allow me to be who You designed me to be. I pray this in Jesus' name. AMEN.

Has it really been that long since I last posted anything? Well, MMTC is going well for myself.. my son rolls his eyes at school.. but my daughter is reading.. so its not just ME! For a while I thought I wasn't teaching 'right' and was doubting myself once again.. Our whole household has been sick at some point or another since Halloween.. I think we our finally over it.. but I think I pulled a muscle in my shoulder blade.. being on the computer does not help.. LOL!

O' well.. its time for us to pull out the Christmas decorations.. we're a little behind..

Just in case I don't post anything before the new year..

Have a Blessed and Merry Christmas!

The following site is a reading program or online "club" for children.  It's free to sign up and get an account.  It gives you a list of tons of books you can choose from to read (books are not ebooks), answer some questions, earn points, turn in points, and pick out a gift.  One of the gifts is a 6 month subscription for Highlighter magazine; I'm excited about this one.  By answering 5 questions to The Cat in the Hat  my son has already earned 100 points, he got all of them right  !!

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