I had a great weekend.  My dear husband was even off on Friday.  We did a lot of yardwork/gardening things.  Though there is still more that needs to be done.  I am looking forward to it being completed.  This morning we saw an Orchard Oriole in our garden, it was beautiful and I am hoping to see more unique birds this year.  So, with nice things happening and good things in the future, why am I so down.

There are exciting things happening at our church, we are having new growth and new believer on a weekly basis.  Yesterday, we had eight people, children and adults, baptised.  It was so wonderful.  My husband and I work with the children's church (grades K-5) and are very active and feel blessed to be a part of this ministry.  We are not just Sunday Christians, we take our relationship with Christ very seriously and try to live as God would have us.  Sure, we are human and make mistakes, but I earnestly seek to do the will of God.  So, what is wrong with me?  Why do I feel so alone when I know that the Creator of all things is constantly with me? 

Maybe I just seek approval of other's too much.  Maybe I look for reasons to get offended.  But so often I feel invisible.  No, I am not looking for awards or that type of recognition.  My rewards are in Heaven, where they belong.  I just feel that people don't care to hear me, that I should just smile and live my life.  That, yes, friends want my company but don't want to respect me as another adult.  I am sure some of this stems from my childhood and how I was treated then.  I geuss I should just get over it and realize that most people just don't have manners or respect for eachother anymore.  Sad, but true.  I know I am guilty of it at times.  Lord, help me improve.