I made quite a display of selfish pigism last night. Oh, the woes I loudly expressed and the extent to which I pitied myself and expected pity from everyone else. No, of course I am not ready to start school on Monday. We are starting anyway, but it has not been a good week for planning and of course I am convinced it is all because my children are uncooperative. So last night I ascted like a big baby, and it really wasn't even triggered by school related stress. Looking back now in the light of day I cannot even remember what all I griped about. The van window was left down and we had an awful storm. I had to take the little ones to my parents' house so I could take the big girls to the north side of Atlanta today for Ceili band practice. I had to come back home and get pullups because they didn't pack them, even though they were told to. Somehow some other little things were added to that and it turned into a fit. It didn't help that the day before someone dumped a whole glass of water on my schedule and all the little pieces of paper I had cut out and labeled with everyone's activities. And it didn't help that we had been gone all Friday doing stuff for them (little ungrateful brats) and all I get is whining when we get home. And they want me to cook supper of all things. Who do they think I am ? Oh, I know who I am. Don't think I'm actually being serious. I am the mother. THE MOTHER. The nurturer. The chief cook and bottle washer. The foreman of this place. "Who put you in charge of this outfit?" if I may quote O, Brother Where art thou? The good Lord gave me these wonderful people. Me, a sinner in need of a savior.  And like Paul, I know darn well what I should do, I just plain don't do it. Weak fleshly creature that I am, and full of excuses. So, again I resolve to do better, and again I'm sure I'll get to 5:00 and another brother battle and undone sink of dishes and play the martyr again. I should win an Academy Award for the martyr role. I am sooooo good at it. It is probably my biggest vice that I should work on but isn't noticeable by most. It's one of those sins that is mostly secret because it's all in my thoughts. Made all the more potent, though, by the way I sometimes entertain the thoughts of pity.

Okay, on to better topics. I am tired of talking about that. I just finally joined HSLDA. After 12 years of homeschooling, it is about time.  I have gotten some school planning done and besided waiting on a few things from Rainbow Resource we're ready to get started. We certainly need the structure to our days .

I have unexpected company so I will pause. Hopefully I will find another moment or two to relate the evenful week we've had. If I don't I'll be sure to forget it.  

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Posted by Rainbogirl

I DID read this post... I think I was going to comment, but couldn't think of anything to say.
I have not, however, come back since then and seen the next post. I am going to read it now. :)

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