Posted in July 2008
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The title of this Blog Challenge, is "God Whispers" Often God will speak so profoundly to us through circumstances, and even just out of the blue ~ like in the shower. Share one of those "God Whispers" with us! (I hope you don't mind Sheila, that I copied this from the cafe Okay, one God Whisper. Not going into specifics here, but one time, a few years ago. I had a very bad nightmare. Now mind you, this was when my husband was not walking with the Lord and was involved in some selfish, self destructive behaviour. In my night mare, the four of us were in the car, going down the road. I don't remember our original destination, that is not important. The issue was that Mike was driving, and he had been drinking. There was a curve coming up and Mike didn't make the curve. We went sailing off the edge of the road and we were falling, down to the bottom. Absolute fear!!! There was no way that we were going to survive that fall. I don't remember which child it was, but in the dream, in the car, as it sailed downward, one of them peered at me from between the front seats, and looked at me with this fear and total disbelief. Nothing but pure innocence shown on that child's face. My thoughts were, "my children, my complete innocent children, are going to suffer this total unnecessary event because of a stupid choice their daddy made." I hurt for my children. I hurt for the destruction of my family that was inevitable. I was an emotional mess. We never hit bottom. I woke up, or I should say, I jolted awake and sprang instantly to a seated position in the bed. I was crying uncontrollably. Mike came and held me as he always did whenever I awoke from a nightmare, (which was quite often in those days). I could smell the beer on him. I was cussing him in my head. I could not stop crying. After 45 minutes or so, I was finally able to tell him about my dream. I also told him what God told me it was in reference to. God told me, that if Mike didn't stop his drinking. Our family as we knew it, was going to come to an end. I knew that was the reason for such a traumatic dream. I don't know if the end of our marriage/family would have been as drastic as depicted in my dream, but it was going to be over and final. Within the year, Mike stopped drinking. He hasn't touched a drop since in 3 1/2 years. I know that is very dramatic, but I know that was my God Whisper, the meaning of my dream. This challenge helped me to get it out. I have never shared this dream with anyone except my husband. I pray that by revealing it here, it won't hurt so much each time I recall it. Thank you for letting me share. (((HUGS))) |
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. I remember thinking that Mike's drinking caused this. With his actions, his choice, in one split second, we were all going to die. Comments
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Posted by Steph C
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