We went to town to get some basic essentials.  We stopped at the local thrift store.  I was hoping to find some great books to add to the "book basket" for this years schooling.   I found a couple good cookbooks to help us when we make a meal from other cultures.  also found some really cool Charlie Chaplin movies.  Oh I can't wait to bless my children with those treasures!!! 

I picked up some contact paper and some construction paper and a couple 4X6 index card boxes for our Geography Vocabulary.  We got some colored pencils too.  I am just about finished with school shopping.  I am more nervous than they are.  I have never been a teacher before.

I am so excited.  I got confirmationin an email today that someone that I worked with is going to be homeshooling for the first time this year!!!  He and his wife were looking for curriculum.  They are going to be in our homeschool group  YAY!!!

I have had one cigarette today.  Not too shabby if I do say so myself.  I want another one, but I am trying to keep my mind off of it.  I am eating popcorn right now.  to try to keep my hands and mouth occupied lol

Friday, we are going to the Beth Moore Simulcast!!!  My daughter and I are going to attend.  I am so excited!!!  It'll be very encouraging!!  I just love Beth Moore!!!

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Now that school is about to start, I am remembering the summer months.  Remembering Summer?  It is supposed to be over 100 degrees today, I think it still is summer lol.

I think this is the best summer that we have had yet do date!  We finally went on a real vacation!  Oh what a blast we had.  It just wasn't long enough.  We rented a car and traveled to Gatlinburg Tennessee!  We met Michelle, Daisy, Lisa, and Lisa.  That meeting of course was the best part of the whole trip.  We rented a very nice cabin (all of us) and we, (dh, dd, ds and I) were on the bottom floor, Lisa, and Lisa were on the main floor, and Daisy was on the top floor.  Michelle and her family stayed with her sister in a nearby town!!

We went to Dolly wood.  Oh I could spend more time there.  There were a couple of rides that I wouldn't have minded going on, but my children just wouldn't have it.  I did talk everyone in to going on the new Mine ride.  Oh it was scary.  Then I got ds to go with me on one of the wooden roller coasters.  While we were on the ride, I would glance at him and the look on his face told me that maybe I shouldn't have brought him on this ride, but it was too late.  We were going up, and down and over and twisting all very very fast!!!  I thought to myself, "if I ever get him off of this thing, (I thought it was a blast) I will forever beg for his forgiveness and sware to him that mommy will never make him ride on anything like that again".

So we get off of it, and as we are starting to walk on fhe walkway down and away from the rollercoaster, I asked him, "Are you okay?'   He was still looking a bit wobbley and he looked at me and said, "That was fun mom!".  Huh?  Wow, I never thought he would have enjoyed it by the look on his face earlier!!!   But he told me, "I don't think that (dd) would like it.."  He had a point there.  lol

Back home again, we were in the middle of softball/baseball.   Dd's team won first place in her division this year!!  Yay!  Ds's came in second I think.  But it is okay, Because ds's team last year came in first, so now both children have a first place team memory!!!

Those are just a couple highlights of our summer. 

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The title of this Blog Challenge, is "God Whispers" 

 Often God will speak so profoundly to us through circumstances, and even just out of the blue ~ like in the shower.  Share one of those "God Whispers" with us! (I hope you don't mind Sheila, that I copied this from the cafe)

Okay, one God Whisper.  Not going into specifics here, but one time, a few years ago.  I had a very bad nightmare.  Now mind you, this was when my husband was not walking with the Lord and was involved in some selfish, self destructive behaviour.   In my night mare, the four of us were in the car, going down the road.  I don't remember our original destination, that is not important.  The issue was that Mike was driving, and he had been drinking.  There was a curve coming up and Mike didn't make the curve.  We went sailing off the edge of the road and we were falling, down to the bottom.  Absolute fear!!!  There was no way that we were going to survive that fall. .  I remember thinking that Mike's drinking caused this.  With his actions, his choice, in one split second, we were all going to die. 

I don't remember which child it was, but in the dream, in the car, as it sailed downward, one of them peered at me from between the front seats, and looked at me with this fear and total disbelief.  Nothing but pure innocence shown on that child's face.  My thoughts were, "my children, my complete innocent children, are going to suffer this total unnecessary event because of a stupid choice their daddy made."

I hurt for my children.  I hurt for the destruction of my family that was inevitable. 

I was an emotional mess.  We never hit bottom.  I woke up, or I should say, I jolted awake and sprang instantly to a seated position in the bed.  I was crying uncontrollably.  Mike came and held me as he always did whenever I awoke from a nightmare, (which was quite often in those days). I could smell the beer on him.  I was cussing him in my head.  I could not stop crying.  

After 45 minutes or so, I was finally able to tell him about my dream.  I also told him what God told me it was in reference to.   God told me, that if Mike didn't stop his drinking.  Our family as we knew it, was going to come to an end.  I knew that was the reason for such a traumatic dream.  I don't know if the end of our marriage/family would have been as drastic as depicted in my dream, but it was going to be over and final. 

Within the year, Mike stopped drinking.  He hasn't touched a drop since in 3 1/2 years.   I know that is very dramatic, but I know that was my God Whisper, the meaning of my dream.   This challenge helped me to get it out.   I have never shared this dream with anyone except my husband.  I pray that by revealing it here, it won't hurt so much each time I recall it.   Thank you for letting me share.  (((HUGS)))

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We used Christian Liberty Press for our children last year for our first year of Homeschooling.  We were very pleased with it and never wrote in it.   This year, we changed curriculum, we are using My Father's World Multi Aged.  Exploring Countries and Cultures.

We want to sell our CLP 2nd grade and 4th grade books.  But no one seems interested in purchasing the complete curriculum at a very reduced price.    So I guess I am going to have to break it down and sell each individual piece.  

So if any of you would be interested.  Please oh please just leave me a comment. 

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First Day of school is in two weeks.   Am I ready?  No!    This is all new to me.  Dh did the teaching last year, (our first year), and now it is time for me to take the reins, with a new curriculum to boot.    Oh it'll be okay,  I know it will.  God has opened so many doors for us this past year.  There certianly have been alot of changes too. 

Mike has been in so much pain lately.  All those trips back and forth to the doctors for shot after shot, just haven't seemed to help.  He is frustrated.   I am frustrated.  We know there is a reason for all of this, we just don't see it yet.  

I have been out of work for about two an a half weeks.  It is nice to be home after five years of getting up at 2:30!!!  Boy I don't miss that at all.   I have received my first severence check.  That made me feel better.  We haven't missed a paycheck.  Thank you Lord.  Now if my unemployment check would start coming....   I hope that I finally got all the correct information to them.  That first lady that I talked to when I initiated my claim, just messed my information all up.   We shall see.  I hate to think that I will have to call them again,  it takes at least (no joke) 20 minutes on hold, to get to talk to a live person. 

I was supposed to quit smoking today.  I didn't do it.  I rationalized it all to being behind on my pills for two and a half days.   Plus I knew that there were still cigarettes here somewhere, because I asked Mike to get rid of them for me last night.   I had a pack and a half.  Mike hates to throw anything away, so he gave them back fo me.  I am weak, I know.  I will do this again.  I am still taking my pills.  I am trusting in the Lord, that I can do this.  I promise. 

I think this is all for now.  I need to preview this and see how it looks and play around on figuring out how to put other stuff on here besides just typing words.  lol

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