Well, here I am.  This is the first time in a while that I FELT like blogging.  I've not been depressed or anything I just felt like it was time to FAST blogging.  Many times when we fast food at the Lord's direction we end up in a deeper relationship with Him, having gained control and victory over some part of our flesh and able to impart something new to others.

Well, since I have stopped blogging so much(and stopped thinking about what to blog)  I've been able to minister from my heart some things God gave me on WEAKNESS(see previous post) for my support group newsletter.  I feel like I am plugged back into God again. I'm more in-tune with my children, my husband, and in keeping my home in a presentable state.  I'm determined, from now on, not to let anything come between me hearing God.  Jill Novak and her post on How to Manage the Blog served as a confirmation in what I was feeling I needed to do.

This community has been such a blessing to me.  This is where I believe God led me to take the plunge and start studying and implementing the Principle Approach in my homeschool.  This is where I met my BPA fellow-homeschoolers .  This is where I started my first blog.  This is where I began to feel comfortable putting my thoughts down and have others read/critique/whatever and not be afraid to let my heart and thoughts be known.  God has really used it in my life. 

I'm well on my way with BPA.  I feel I have finally found that which was missing in our homeschool and HSB was the vehicle thru which I found BPA. 

So is HSB's purpose in my life been fulfilled?  I don't know.  I shall have to keep seeking God and keep being sensitive to His direction.  I find my desire to blog is not what it used to be.  I find I question the purpose of 'blogging' in my life(as I did at the beginning) and I still don't know.  I'll just continue to be obedient to the Voice of the One who has called me and given His life for me.

There are many things God brings us into or allows us to come into but He never intends for us to stay there.  It's like we are "passing thru"; so I want to be sensitive to the Lord to see what new things He is bringing into my life in 2006 and what things He is directing me to "let go".  I've found that no matter how comfortable we may get with the people, blessings, things, opportunities God brings to us that there is a season to everything and every purpose under the sun and if we are unwilling to let go of what God says is 'the old' (b/c we are too attached) then He CANNOT bring the new; 

I want to be able to be so sensitive to the Lord that when He makes a turn I know it, feel it, and turn right with Him; when He stops I stop; w/o words ever being spoken I want to walk so close to Him that I can follow Him just by the motion of His Spirit enveloping mine; so sensitive that I feel what He feels and respond when His thoughts turn to me; so close that I obey when He directs and hear Him when He whispers; I want to be so immersed in God that whichever direction the wind of His Spirit blows I flow with it.

I love Him just that much and my heart longs for Him all the time.  He is Greater than anything I can ever possess therefore He is the One I follow.