Ok!  This feeling gets so intense at times I feel like bursting!!!

Even though I have my literacy and arithmetic lesson plans and I've decided to use the 1st grade NP Lessons I still find myself trying to add more.  I guess I feel that I'm not doing everything I feel would make up a 'complete' curriculum. 

Like for instance I really have not thougth about my goals or thoughtfully planned any lessons for comprehension(listening and reading), grammar, parts of words, more American history.

I feel like I'm doing these things kind of 'happenstance'...as we come to it...IF we come to it. 

And I keep feeling like I should have a more direct plan(lesson) of how I'm going to accomplish these things that are in my head.  I think that is my biggest stress: I have not taken the time to write things down.

Another thing..it is coming up time for annual testing.  We don't have to test until 5th grade but I want to test just to give me a benchmark for where we are....and I feel like I have not taught everything(content-wise) that she'll need to pass these standardized test.

I have focused mainly on what biblical principle I want hidden in their hearts...which is not wrong but I keep feeling like my curriculum is not 'complete'.

Another thing is that I jot down little things/topic/leading ideas, etc.  to teach for each subject but I find I have not taken it thru to the year's end...and I feel I need to do that in my planning b/c if I don't we'll get to that part of the year where I don't have anything planned and we'll just be floating....doing nothing..

Ayaya!!!!!!     Maybe I'm stressing for nothing.  Mind u this stress is not depressing me.  For some reason I absolutely love lesson planning.  I think that is one reason I love the BPA so much and even the NP guides b/c the material is so organized in guiding u what to include in your own curriculum.

I think what I'll do is take it ONE subject at a time and plan that ONE out for the whole year until I feel I have purchased all the resources I need for that subject and until I feel it is 'complete' enough to move on to the next subject.  I find I keep jumping around in my mind from one subject to the next getting all these great ideas of what to teach and my mind feels like it is about to explode.