If there was an award for the worst homeschool blogger I would probably take 1st place 
I love to read the blogs when I have time but I just usually think I don't have anything interesting to post about. When I started this blog I thought I would track our days. Even if that meant just listing what we did in our books for the day.
Well, today I thought I would give it another try. So, here is what we've all been up to the past bit:
~I have been babysitting for the past 3 1/2 months
~Planting our garden
~Trying to keep up on school work
~Trying to get my house in order
~Trying to just get back to my old self again!
I don't know if you would call it "depression," but I've been feeling just "not great" the past couple of weeks. I knew the babysitting & other changes would be an adjustment, but I just didn't know how much it would throw me off.
When I do have some free time, I usually have to hurry & tidy up, cook or I just want to take a bit of time to myself. --The problem with this is I had been trying to put up a happy front with my husband (who really did not want me to babysit to begin with) Well, after my going to bed around 7:30 for a couple of nights my husband came in to talk to me. I finally confessed all the emotions I was feeling & that things were not always going "peachy" during the day. That school was not being a priority, if we even got to it during the day at all.---Would you know he was not mad. He said he could tell for some time that something was wrong & he figured what was going on anyway.
Well, I told my sister today (after many times of her changing the subject & not calling me back for several weeks --other than to drop the children off) That I give her 2 more weeks to find another sitter.
I do have some guilt because I really thought everything would be ok and I LOVE my niece & nephew dearly. I am just not able to attend to my family's needs by watching them so often. I know I should not feel guilty, but I just can't help it.
So now I have spent the past few days getting off of my rump! I bought a new bookshelf & organized the hallway/library. I also cleaned both bathrooms really well & got rid of some old towels. Just doing those couple of things has made me begin to feel better & back to my old self again.
I am also going to re-do my household binder & get some chore charts back together. --My kids have also been taking advantage of my "mood" We had a family talk last weekend & they are doing better now too.
I guess I just can't get a little off track or instead of a bump I get completely de-railed!
Some good news is that we've been looking for a new place to live!!! I have wanted to leave this area for a while. I realize that it may take a while to find something we can afford but I've been praying about this for years & I know if I keep my trust in God then things will work out.
Thanks for reading & I'll do my best to post happy things from now on!
So, that's it for my whining & venting. --I guess that is what is great about a blog. I can get all my feelings out to cyber friends & not hurt anyone I love's feelings in the process.
Tomorrow I'll post on what school work we've been up to...This is homeschool blogger after all! |