Day 4 What would you want to make sure you did before dying if you knew you would die in 5 years time?  Be specific.

Well, it is certainly a long time between posts.  This is really heavy going and it keeps my mind occupied for sure.

With only 5 years to live my boys would be 13yo, 10yo and 7yo.  That is so young to lose your mum.

My eldest is a sensitive soul and I would hate to leave him alone to manage his teen years.  How could I best prepare him?  I guess by making sure I have his heart, that he knows my heart and that he knows that his Heavenly Father knows him so much better than I could.  I would want him to have a guiding system of values that will keep him out of trouble.  I would want him to be always thinking “would this be what my mum would want for me?”  He definitely needs to be taught to think things through.  Maybe a boy thing or just his personality as his father seems to not be able to think about future consequences very well and he is almost 35yo.

My second is a bit of an adventurer.  I would want to know that he should follow his talents and not be squashed by others if he wants to try out new things. 

For all of my boys I would like them to know they have each other.  That family is the most important thing in this world after a relationship with their Heavenly Father and that they need to support each other yet not take responsibility for another’s actions as we all make our own choices and have to live with the consequences.

You may wonder where I picture my dh in all of this?  Well, he has not been well for a long time and it has drained him emotionally and spiritually.  If I was not around I am concerned that he would be more likely to completely fall apart than gather himself together to be an involved Dad.  He has the best of intentions but he hasn’t followed through on many for such a long time that I have very little faith in him at all.

Best wishes,

Jen in Oz