Homeschooling mom to be.

Many Tough Lessons

Have you ever had people complain about your kids, just for being kids?  I'm there right now.  My kids are not bad kids.  We take great care to make sure our children behave as much as we can.  The thing is, they are still 3 and 4 years old, and they behave as 3 and 4 year olds do.  But apparently this is a big problem.  It's so discouraging.  I've never prayed so much in my life as I have since I became a mother.  It's really scary in some regards, knowing the huge weight of responsibility that we as parents have.  But then to have people complain about them on a regular basis, people whom my children are supposed to love and trust, I worry for them.

My kids are genuinely feeling it, too.  The other day, I told my older daughter to do something, and she cried.  When I took her aside to talk to her, and asked her why she was crying, she replied, "everyone gets mad at me all the time!" and this is from a 4 year old!  Doesn't that say a lot about the extent of the complaining going on around here?  I wrestle a lot with it.  I feel like if we don't move soon, our family is going to start coming apart at the seams.  And yet God seems to keep the doors closed for us to move right now.  I admit, I get upset that God won't allow us to move, and that He won't give me His reasons for keeping us here.  I'm trying my best to be patient, but I feel like I'm losing ground on a lot of issues that we had had fully under our belts before.

I'm trying my best, also, to handle this in a way that will be an example to my kids.  I tell them to respect elders at all times, but they don't see the disagreement.  I can't use that as an excuse, and so I feel like I'm being used as a door-mat.  I'm at a very frustrating place right now.  My poor husband, I don't want to complain to him all the time about it, but I truly don't think he realizes the extent of things either, since he works all day.  I just really need a lot of prayer.  I have my back up against a wall and I'm still being pushed. 

Mama J.

Wow - sounds like a tough situation

8:27 PM, May. 10, 2009 .. Posted by kcmyworld

I appreciate your patience and reliance on God, but I can only imagine how difficult things are for you and your family right now. I will be praying.

Robin

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4:14 PM, May. 11, 2009 .. Posted by SandBetweenMyToes

I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how tough this is. (Living with my inlaws would be the same way.) When Ashley was little, I had state point blank that she knew her MawMaw didn't care about the things she did (achievements). It's such a hard place you are in. I do think you need to pray about letting your husband know just how bad the situation is. I will be praying that God will continue to help you, to protect those little girls, and to make a way for you all to be on your own again SOON.
Letitia