Homeschooling mom to be.

Oh, for stronger faith!

How do you encourage your husband when you're questioning things yourself?  My husband runs his own business.  It's been rocky since the beginning.  Even though things have improved, there are still many, many bumps in the road.  Getting from here to there has taken a lot longer than we dreaded was possible.  He's so discouraged today.  We haven't submitted our taxes yet, since we have to pay to do that, and we don't have the money to pay.  If we don't submit our taxes, we don't get our money from the government, which means we won't make ends meet at the end of the month.  He's been working long, long hours to get the business to a point where he can move it out of the house, thus created more space and opportunity for more work to come in, but it just isn't happening for him right now.

I have to be perfectly honest, there are many days when I wonder if having his own business is really worth it.  So far it has not resulted in the freedom, time, etc. that he keeps telling me we'll have.  We have no insurance or drug coverage, he works from 7:30 in the morning, and often doesn't come up for supper till 6 in the evening, and then half the time he has to return downstairs to finish things up.  I'm trying my best to be supportive of his decisions, but it's becoming more and more difficult as it feels like we're slipping further and further back.  I'm trying to put some more time into prayer about it all.  We're still here at my in-laws house, and if things don't improve, we're likely to be here for a long time.

I'm struggling a lot with where we are now, and I feel as though I'm failing in my job to encourage my husband.  I'm trying not to be unreasonable.  I have never told him I want him to get a regular job and leave his business behind.  I'm trying to show God's grace in it.  I'm trying to stay positive instead of thinking how far in debt we are and how more and more impossible it feels to climb out from under that debt.  If you guys could pray for me, I really do need it.  I don't want to add to his already big burden by complaining. 

Mama J.

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9:30 PM, Jun. 28, 2009 .. Posted by SandBetweenMyToes

I am so sorry for all that you are going through. It has to be incredibly hard. We had a business like that for many years. Being self employed does not come with freedom, at least normally, for a long time. This current economy is so hard, too. I will be praying for you, and asking God to keep you and your husband on my heart to pray. God will make a way for your family. These are very difficult decisions.

((hugs}}
Letitia

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7:00 PM, Jun. 29, 2009 .. Posted by Lilyofthevalley4

My heart goes out to you. I will keep you in my prayers.

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2:03 PM, Jun. 30, 2009 .. Posted by PinkFlamingo

Praying for you all right now, for God to pour out grace, wisdom, and provision for your family.

To answer your comment, I don't think I've actually posted any details about the Kenya trip on my blog yet. I'll be going toward the end of July and staying for 4 weeks! That's the longest I've ever been away from home, so I'm a little nervous but very excited too. This is something I've wanted to do for a VERY long time. I appreciate your prayers.

God bless you and your family. Keep holding on.
"I waited patiently for the Lord, and He inclined to me and heard my cry...He brought me up out of the pit...and He set my feet upon a rock, making my footsteps firm. He put a new song in my mouth." Psalm 40:1-3