The Byrd's Nest

Nov. 12, 2007

I miss my mom

My mom passed away on November 1. It was so sudden and unexpected; I'm just now coming to terms with it. People always say that they are sorry for my loss and that is what this truly feels like - loss. The grim reality that I can't see my mom anymore or hear her voice stuns me; it feels cruel and wrong. I do take comfort that my mom is with her Lord and Savior, Jesus. It helps to know she no longer suffers with emphysema or bad knees and that she is no longer tethered to her oxygen tank. I know how joyful she must have felt at seeing her own parents again and her brother. This comforts me but the profound sense of loss remains. I have good days and bad days, good hours and bad hours. Your mom is the person who HAS to love you. I miss her. The primary reason that I began this blog was so that the grandparents could keep up with what the girls were doing in school. It means so much to me that mom came around when it came to the whole homeschooling thing. She thought I was nuts when I first attempted it; she supported me in the end. In fact, she did not want me to enroll my middle ones in public school this year! I appreciate her eventual willingness to have an open mind about, what was to her, a very strange idea.... parents educating their own children. I just really miss her...

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Dec. 17, 2007 - Understanding your loss

Posted by mamaof4

Hi, ran upon your blog today and just wanted to say I am sorry. I completely know what you are going through, I lost my mom Oct 14th, suddenly also and I lost my dad last May, never expected to lose either of them so soon, I was not ready. I wanted them to live till they were 100 so that they could see my kids grow up and such. I also have my bad days and good days. My mom was my best friend, we did everything together, I never hung out with ladies my age or had any really close friends where we lived, except my mom. I miss her everyday, and sometimes I feel like she is just on vacation and that she will be back, I hate to think what is going to happen when I realize she is truely gone.
God Bless you and I will keep you in my prayers. If you ever need to talk I am all ears.
Kathy

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Jan. 9, 2008 - Untitled Comment

Posted by MamaMary

I am so very sorry..., my heart is overwhelmed for you. Praying right now that you will experience His perfect peace today!

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Apr. 17, 2008 - HUGS

Posted by Anonymous

I lost my mom 10 years ago when I was 28. It is, without a doubt, the hardest thing I have had to deal with in my life. I understand your profound sense of loss. Your momma is truly your best friend, your cheerleader, your defender, your soft place to land. I just wanted to send you a hug today. (((HUGS))) You will make it through...one day at a time.
~Mamaof2Boys (fromHSR)

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