So, I came across this pic and it made me sad. My little baby is growing into a little boy and too soon he will be a little man. In this pic he was only 8 or 9 months. Now he is a very tall two and a half yr. old. Time goes by too fast. I want to rewind. I find myself really wanting another one but I dont know I really want another one or if I just want to relive his babyhood. Anyways, Zach and I have come to the decision that we are not going to try to have another one until we get out of traning, which if we go in next Aug. it will be 2 years of school. So I guess I will be about 29 by the time we start trying again. We have prayed long and hard about this and feel it is the best. Going to school full time and raising Miles will be hard enough without adding in an infant. It is not what I had pictured for our life. I figured we would have another one around the time Miles turned 3 but God's plan for my life is much better than anything I could do on my own. I keep reminding myself, "Mishelle, it is not all about you." Aside from that, I have been having some stuff going on at work. Part of the problem is that I was passed over for a position I was next in line for. But even though I really want to quit, I feel God wants me to stay for some unknown reason. Quitting would be much easier than continuing to work somewhere I am unhappy but God's way is not always the easy way. I keep telling myself that this is not the job I will have for the rest of my life, it is not my calling. A verse has continued to pop into my head for the last month. I am taking it from The Message. I love the way it is worded, I find it easier to relate to.

I know what I am doing. I have planned it all out- plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.                

  Jeramiah 29:11

I know God has given Zach and I an awesome calling and he has a reason he wants me to stay where I am right now. I dont know why but he does and that is all that matters. He has awesome plans for everyone, they just have to make the decision to follow him and his plan for their life. Well, I am going to go hang out with my husband. I could be cleaning my house which is a wreck,( all you parents of toddlers know what that is like. I can spend hours cleaning and he can wreck it all in 20 min.) but I can do that tomrrow. I want to be lazy. Every woman should take some lazy time. I hope you all sleep well, Take care and God Bless.

P.S. I found my new fav. singer. Her name is Corinne Bailey Rae. Check her out, especially " Like a Star".