Ok, I am back again after being gone for awhile. These last couple of weeks have been eye openers for me. Things have been kind of rough but I know through all of this stuff I am learning valuable lessons. I have been feeling kind of down lately. It just seems that everything I have been trying to accomplish has to go wrong in one way or another. I have been told that the closer you try to get to God the more the Devil trys to steal your joy and boy is that true! But I have to remind myself that I have the option to let him steal it or not. I have to admit I have been letting him win. I let myself get so worked up over little stupid things and from there it just seems to snowball. Anyone out there know how I feel? I sure hope I am not the only one. 

Anyway, we are finally all getting better. We have been sick off and on for about three weeks and now it finally seems to be going away. Work is going very well and I am very happy there. I was able to go back to church this past Thursday but I guess since I have been gone for about two weeks I just feel lost there. I dont know if lost is the word I want to use but I cant think of a better one. I love my church and would never dream of leaving but I just felt like I was not a part of it on Thurs. I know I am a part of it and I am involved in lots there but oh well. That all could be another way that Satan is trying to get at me. So, my friend gave a devotional that night and it really hit home with me. It was about being still. You know, " Be Still and Know that I am God". It sounds like such an easy thing to do but it's not. I am always running around doing something, cleaning something, etc... I try to do my devotionaly daily but it just does not happen. I bearly have time to have a moment to myself, another thing that is SOOOOO important. I had to stop and think, when is the last time I was just quiet and still to open myself to God. It's been a long time. Too Long. So, as I was driving home kind of in a bad mood because I just was, I turned on the radio and was listening to KSBJ as I always do. I started to sing along, I forget what song was on and then I just stopped singing. This was weird for me because I am always singing. I find it hard to not sing. But I just drove and listened. I suddenly found myself crying. I was not really sad but I just felt this overwhelming peace and it blew me away. I took a moment to be still and God spoke to my heart. We are so blessed to have a God who remembers us even when we forget him. Now I would like to say everything was perfect after that but we all know that would be a lie. I still keep putting off my devotionals but God keeps reminding me that I need to spend time with him. I am just in amazed at his patience with me. I pray for that kind of patience.

Miles is doing GREAT. I have the most AWESOME child!! No, he is not perfect. He has a hitting problem and he talks back alot but I still adore him. I bought him some toys from a teachers store and he just amazes Zach and I with how smart he is. He has these sorting bears that are in all different colors and there are different color cups to go with them. He sorts them all into the right color cups easily. Not only does he sort them correctly but he picks them up with these little tongs I got him. He has great fine motor skills. I also got him these dinosaur links, they are like that barrel of monkeys toy. He loves them. I love to watch him learn. We also have a game where we ask him to find different shapes around the house. I will say " Find a rectangle" and he will point out the drawer, or a book, or the window sill. He loves to learn. He is also learning some sign language. This week at daycare his class was learning about feelings so when he gets upset he will tell me " Mommy, I'm angry" etc. He has been teaching me some stuff too. I have been so absorbed with my problems lately and I had noticed he was really acting out. So last night instead of coming home and cleaning etc.. I spent the whole evening playing with him, and I can really tell that is what he needed. Today he has been such a pleasure. No temper tantrums, he is doing better on talking back and he has not hit today. It's wonders what a little Mommy and Me time will do. He did not even fight me on nap today. I just got him this cool Marble Works toy and I told him that if he took a good nap then when he woke up we would play and he said " Ok"  and went to sleep.  Also he loves to help me clean house, especially vaccum. I takes a long time cause he has to help me push it but I let him help me today, I took about 10 min longer but it was worth it to see the smile on his face.

Well, I have probably wrote too much and if you finish reading this you deserve a medal so I am going to go. I will try to put some pics of Miles doing his "work" later. Take Care and God Bless.