Well if you read yesterday's blog about my having to wait for news from the Dr.'s office then here is the update. Long Story short. I had a CBC blood test ran last Tuesday and should have had word no later than Thursday that all was fine. Well by Friday I was getting a little upset about the fact no one had called me. So over the weekend I just kept trying to put it out of my head.

I mentioned it to dh and his reply was-"Well you know people never take care of business and don't always follow through like they say they will." Well I called again Monday morning and left a message the lady I spoke with also told me that usually by now I would have had my results back. (Ummm that did not make me feel better.) So during the extended wait-my mind begins again thinking all kind of things...

"Gee what could possibly be wrong? Did they find something? Are they retesting it to be sure, are they waiting for more results, what if they did find something? Etc. What if I have_____..What if______? What if ______? " And I won't go as far on this blog as my mind took me but by 2:00 I had pretty much worked myself into a FRENZY!  By this time a stronghold had been built. A fortified city full of delusions taking me into panic, worry, doubt etc.

So when the Dr.s office finally called me -I braced myself. and here is what they said "Everything looks fine, all your tests look good and came back normal. Your HDL was a little elevated but your overall cholesterol was fine, etc. " So I repeated to her "So everything is fine?" She replies "Yes." I said "Well they told me I would have my results by Thursday, what took so long, I was getting pretty worried." Their reply "They sent the blood work report to the nurse and she has been out of the office for the past few days." 

So all this stuff that my mind made up-just an illusion-my crazy thinking! A perfectly logical explanation etc. (Just like dh said-since she was out no one else was taking care of business.)

I must admit it took me about 3 hours to calm down and get it all through my mind that I am going to be okay!  And today I was just thinking isn't that like the enemy? He builds up fortresses in our minds, Lies-deception, False fears, worry. doubt, etc. Then when the truth comes forth-it is like blowing on a house of cards-they all fall down and the stronghold (false fortress) is destroyed.

So tell me-do you think I am an obsessive person? I mean do you think I am off my rocke?  Is this kind of thinking normal or what? I mean I am just wondering. (Is it lack of trust?) Anyone else ever go through stuff like this?  Anyway all I know is next time-I will remind myself of this experience!