Posted in Personal
It's been a tough day. The baby is crabby and has another diaper rash (and I cannot figure out what it's being caused by--ugh!), I'm still not feeling well, and my eldest sons aren't in the mood to help today. They're always such great helpers and I appreciate them, though I worry sometimes about them helping *too* much. Today we did some P.E. which is an amazing thing (any moms out there want to say "amen" to that?!?!) so I felt good about that, but then worrying about the grammar and math I did NOT get to today can sortof wipe out my feelings of triumph. Never going to get to it all in this life, apparently.
This morning I read about how God is the one who "works in us to will and to do His good pleasure," and it made me wonder about how exactly that works. Does a person have a choice in the matter of IF he will do God's good pleasure? If I choose to do good, and someone else apparently chooses not to since they aren't doing that same "good thing," is it because of their own lack of willingness and/or work, or is it just because God hasn't worked it in them yet? Far greater minds have debated this and come to differing conclusions, I'm afraid. It just seems like it would be so helpful if it were clear, because my interactions with others and myself would be different if I knew where to place the blame, LOL. The thing that's getting me right now is that if I assume that some people aren't "doing good" because of their own choice not to, then it would seem to follow that I am "doing good" because I personally chose to do so MYSELF, which would indicate that I'm somehow better than that other person, which does not sound right to me! So I'm wondering if maybe God is the One I need to take it up with (yeah, right!) when I'm not happy with someone else's behavior. Or at least that I can let up on my own quiet frustration with others and myself in those areas where the mark is not quite being hit, or where it's being missed by a mile!
Lots to ponder, but I need to go add some vegetables to the dinner preparations . . .Did you ever see the book with that funny title? I think it was called Lord, I'm Trying to Sit at Your Feet, But Who's Going to Make Dinner? LOL

















