Okay, I've promised for a week now that I'd post my weight loss stats.  I wasn't able to weigh myself last week because our scale's battery died.  I think that it saw me coming, and comitted suicide.  I'm sure it was thinking "I can't handle all that, lady!"  I'll give you a quick numeric history, so you understand where I'm coming from.

13 years old (199?) - 140 lbs, I thought I was I disgusting.  We moved from Germany to the states and I packed on bunches of weight in the first year back (due to sneaking M&M's in the bathroom while I was skipping class.)

13-17 years old - 180 lbs.  Looked like a boy, everyone thought I was a lesbi*n, though I didn't know this until my senior year.  It hurt me badly to find that out.

18 years old - 150 lbs - lost 30+ lbs using Phen/Fen, the popular diet drug concoction that worked because it was like being on speed.

18 years old - 135 lbs - moved the week after high school graduation.  We lived in the country and I had no friends, so I walked 6 miles a day and worked out in my bedroom.  It took an awful lot of work to be that "skinny".   My body naturally likes the 150 lbs range. 

19 years old - 180 lbs - gained 30+ during the first three months of college.  Got pregnant and depressed, gained 60 lbs during pregnancy.

20 years old - 235+ lbs - Lost baby weight and settled here for about a year.

22 years old - 250 - 280 lbs - Got married and gained weight, right along with hubby!  Stayed at 280 for four years. 

26 years old - 288 lbs - Got pregnant, gained 8 lbs during pregnancy.

27 years old - 297 lbs -  Started next pregnancy at 297lbs, ended at 313 lbs.

28 years old - 300+ lbs - The year where I delivered two babies!  Gained a bunch!

29 years old - 330 lbs - Settled here after fourth son was born.  Went down to 323 lbs after first attempt at Setting Captives Free.  Went down to 318 after second attempt at Setting Captives Free. 

Current - 314 lbs.  I consider that a loss of 4 lbs this week.  Though I couldn't weigh myself at the beginning of the week, I had recently weighed and I was 318. 

      This week I'd like to continue seeking God's guidance on food.  Its amazing how clearly he will talk to me about what I should put in my mouth, I just have to ask!  I'd like to start some sort of exercise.  I have a Leslie Sansone walk video.  It must be for big fatties, like me, because its only 15 minutes long.  It supposedly the same as walking one mile.  I'd like to try doing that in the morning.  I mean, if I can't walk for 15 minutes...then I'm in BIG trouble.

       The first 50 lbs are going to be the hardest.  They will also make the most difference in my attitude and my well-being.  I think I could feel human again if I lost 50 lbs.  If your praying, keep it up.  I've dealt with my other BIGGIE strongholds.  This is my last one.  This one is the oldest one and the most complicated.  My weight touches many aspects of my life and experience, so I know the enemy will be fighting against me.