Preparing for Birth

Preparing for the birth of this baby has been difficult. Anger, frustration, and plain ole' hurt have been constant when thinking back to my other births. I know I've come across to the people I am close to as an angry and bitter woman. And I was.

But I think I'm over it. It is hard carrying around that kind of weight, and I'm tired. The more and more I hear of the pain that other women are carrying around due to their birth experiences, the more I realize that I don't want to carry it anymore.

I don't want the births of my babies to be marred by pain and anger. What precious moments wasted.

I still am sickened by the state of birth in our county, the ignorance of most pregnant women, and the scare tactics that doctors use to take advantage of that ignorance. But, I am no longer a dogmatic, in-your-face-crusader against the medical community. I have more important things to do.

I have a birth to get ready for. Only God knows how and where this baby will come into this world. He is, in His loving and gentle manner, showing me that all I need to do is trust Him and He will lead me to the moment where I hold my baby girl in my arms. God wants to be at her birth. In fact, He has great plans for this birth (and every birth). Think of how birth draws us closer to our heavenly father. What other situation requires so much faith?

The conception, carrying, birthing, and raising of a child will bring any woman to her knees in a deep realization that everything she has doesn't even begin to be enough to complete the task He has given her. And I think He planned it that way. What better way to show us that we need Him? What better way to show us how He feels about us?

So, I think I'm done discussing c-sections and vbacs and the business of birth. I'm going to focus on being a daughter of the Heavenly father, so one day I can lead my daughter to Him as well.

11:23 PM - Aug. 24, 2008 - post comment

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my prayers for you are being answered my dear cousin....
love you,
heather
Isaiah 26:3(currently and so obviously being fulfilled....=)

Anonymous - 2:42 PM - Aug. 25, 2008

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Thank God, He has given you peace and comfort. I love you.
Mom

Anonymous - 5:12 PM - Aug. 25, 2008

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