Okay, these lyrics do NOT describe me. Even when I'm not two weeks postpartum, I feel absolutely nothing like a woman. I know that its the weight. It makes me feel like an it, or a nothing. The last time I felt really sexy and beautiful and powerful in being a woman was while dating my husband. I was overweight then too, but not as much. I was still connected with my sensuality - meaning I wasn't a frumpy housewife who spent all day cleaning grime and spit up off her cheeks. Okay, that's probably too much info for most people.
Most women, no, ALL women want to be beautiful. We want someone to find us captivating and alluring. Which, of course, is God's plan. That a man, who desires to find someone captivating and alluring, finds a woman who desires to be captivating and alluring. So, what is wrong with me? My husband assures me that he finds me attractive. He calls me beautiful, he is affectionate and loving. So, why can't I find something about myself that is feminine and gorgeous?
Aaahhh...that's the question. What is feminity? Society says that it is breasts and butts and all that other stuff. But, what does God say? This is what I want to discover. What does God consider femine and beautiful, and how can I have that. Any wise women out there with answers?
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Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.