It is 2008!  I have been looking forward to this new year. I want this year to be different.  Instead of making a resolution to lose weight (which I still want to do), instead  I am going to focus on how I want my boys to remember me. Not that I want to die, but I have been thinking what people, particularly my boys, will say when I die. I know it may sound morbid, but I am not trying to be. Of course, I don't want to die right now, but I am certainly not afraid of dying. I am afraid of not leaving those I love with the absolute certainty that I love Jesus and them. I want to remember  this year that people are more important than things and that I am nothing without Jesus. And I want my family to know that my life has meaning because God has been so good to me and given me so many people to love.

I want to be like Jesus in everything I do. I want to love the unlovable and that is so hard to do. I want to take up my cross every day and honor God in my every word and action and that is so hard to do also. I want people to see me and know that I love Jesus. I want there never to be a doubt as to who I serve.  I am ashamed to say that most of the time people would be hard pressed to know it is Jesus I want to serve.

I want my husband to know how much he means to me. I want him to be left every day with the knowledge that I recognize and appreciate every long hour he puts in at work, every dinner he cooks and every trip to the city park he makes with Nolan. I want him to know that after all these years, his smile and his touch still warm my heart. I want him to never doubt he is the love of my life.  I vow to be a better wife this year and not harass him for calling me a dozen times a day!  LOL- yes, there are days he does that.

I want my boys to know they are my heart. I want them to know they are more important than my cell phone, my computer, and whatever book I am reading. I want to read to them and laugh with them every day. I want them to know I love playing and talking with them. I want them to know that all I ever dreamed about when I was a little girl was being a mother and that they have made my dream come true.

I want my mom, Gary, my brothers and my grandparents  to know they are so very important to me. That when I spend time with them, they bring me such joy.  I want to know that I love them and that God made us all different for a reason. I want to appreciate the differences. 

I want my best girlfriends to know that I am thankful for them. They have been there for me through good and bad, and I never want them to doubt my gratefulness for the part they play in my life even though I rarely get to speak with them I hope they know who they are.


It sounds like a cliche, but the truth is, we never know if our next breath will be at the foot of God. I want my life to bring glory to God. I want the people I love to know how much. I want no regrets. That may sound like too much and I know it will be a challenge, but I have never backed down from a challenge, so why start now?!?!