Okay, so it isn't really that I'm having a baby just yet...but I feel like I just can't wait until Friday!  I'm irritable, cranky, sore and tired!  Not a good combination ;-p  Now it could be contributed to the fact that my due date is Saturday and I'm scheduled for a c-section Friday, it could be that my feet are swollen and my hands get tingley when I knit.  It could be that my daughters are pushing my buttons and that I feel like a failure as an encourager for my hubby!  Then again it could just be me and my sinful nature, with the Lord saying....straighten up and trust my timing! 

That said, I hope today will be better than yesterday and that I wont lose my temper with my daughters.  They were misbehaving and throwing a double fit(meaning both of them at the same time...7 and 4)  and what did I do?  Did I calmly seperate them and discipline them in a calm manner?  Nooooo...I lost my temper and yelled(and I do mean YELLED) at them...sigh...

Did it help?  No, not really.  I ended up apologizing for my own tantrum and felt really horrible, asked for forgiveness from not only God but my children as well.  It is amazing...I've been feeling like I've been doing much better with this and then...BOOM...I blew it.  Well, back to my knees I will go and cry out to the Lord for mercy and help!  It is the only way...and He is the only one that can truly change me.

If I cross your thoughts today...send up a prayer!