Apr. 14, 2008
This and That
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Yep, I'm definitely in Indiana. Still playing peek-a-boo with spring. We've had highs in the forties this week. The newspaper says the high will be 70 degrees on Wednesday though. I hope that it manages to stay in the 60s and 70s until fall this time. I don't mind cooler weather, but going back and forth makes it seem cooler than it actually is. I've been colder in these forty degree temperatures than I was all winter in much cooler temperatures. I'm in vacation mode. That's a good thing right? Well, I suppose it's a good thing if you are planning a vacation. Me? I'm just wishing I could get away with my family and enjoy just being together with them without all of the chores of life calling my name. I'm having to remind myself,constantly, that it's not a good time for a vacation. My husband has another business trip in a couple of weeks and the boys and I still have some school stuff that needs tending to, and we're paying off our 2nd vehicle next month so we want to have every extra penny available to put toward that early pay-off. But.... But, my heart is not buying it all. My heart wants uninterrupted time with my husband and children. It often competes with the chores and the "have-to's" in life....and it knows, all to well, how often those things tend to win out in terms of time and energy. So, in lieu of getting away from home and away from those tasks altogether....I need to be creative. I can do that. I think. My problem is that I'm sort of feeling exhausted right now and I just want the ease of getting away from it all rather than putting energy into being creative. I'm normally very creative when it comes to our family life. I guess it's time that I dust off the cobwebs and get some creativity back, for we need a little something extra right now. Don't you just hate it when you realize that, once again, you've found yourself in this trap of missing what's really important? Isn't it so easy to get caught up in the fact that the dishes haven't been done today and the laundry is behind and the lessons need to be completed and the bills need to be paid, etc.? Do you ever say to yourself that once you get XYZ done then you'll sit down with the kids? I'm guilty of saying that to myself on more than one occasion. Some days we just break out a game and gather the family and block out the white noise of life. I'm preaching to the choir here when I say that all of these things that we allow to distract us.....they're not worth it. I really believe in my heart that we are living the best years of our lives right now. At no other season in my life will I have what I have right here, right now, in this season. My children are all young and under my care. That's a hard thing, but that's a good thing. I don't have to worry about where they are or if they are safe, or if they are eating well or if they're happy in their careers, etc. They are here with me. I can know the details of their lives. I can protect them and I can train them and I can enjoy them. I don't have to call them and ask them how they are doing or if I can come to visit. They're here with me now. This is a blessed time in life......and how......sad.....how sad that I don't always appreciate this time for what it is. I want to blame the chores and the mundane "musts" of life....but truly, it's simply a matter of knowing the best and making a conscience choice to live out that knowledge. I won't let life happen to my family. I am not okay with looking back one day and saying that I didn't do all that I could to make this family unit a strong one. We are a strong family and that is not by chance. We work hard and we play hard and we love hard. And there will never be a dish that is clean enough to compete with that. |