I haven't blogged much lately. I've never been much of one to be at a loss for words (the exact opposite), but sometimes life gets in the way.

School has been a struggle for me. Ever just feel like you just don't want to be bothered? If it weren't for courses that practically teach themselves, we'd be in real trouble. I'm barely getting things marked. Some things I just don't. Housework is sliding. Sounds like depression? Not exactly-- I've been there before-- and I don't feel the same.

Let's see.... friends are moving back home from out west. We miss them, we're looking forward to seeing them again.... but I know it just won't be the same. I have a friend from the CHB (see sidebar) who has been struggling with a brain tumour for over a year now. Just got word she is more than ready to go home.... she and her husband have great faith, they are born-again believers, but it's still hard. I'm pregnant with our 6th child, and have had a few scares, especially after losing one last April. And today, got a call from the doctor that there was something they want to investigate further regarding the baby's heartrate during my ultrasound in December. *sigh*..... and then the usual spiritual battles and discouragment regarding ministry opportunities.

So, there it is. A heavy heart, and lots of things falling by the wayside.

I so want to be an encouragment to other homeschoolers. This ain't it. But you know, I know homeschooling is still the right choice. I'm not perfect, nor do I pretend to be. Been doing this for 10 years now, and I have good days (or months), and I have bad ones. But I keep on slugging away at it, and maybe, just maybe, someone who thinks they can't do it because of whatever, or a newbie who wants to quit because they don't match the ideal portayed in the Sonlight calalogue (or any catalogue/ magazine-- I'm not picking on Sonlight), will realize that real homeschooling families go through crap too. And we get through it.