Category: Transforming Moments

These last few weeks have been quite busy around here!  Most days, or nights I should say, I fall into bed wondering, "Where did all of the time go?  How will I possibly finish everything that I didn't finish today & everything else that tomorrow brings?"  You know the feeling!  ;)  

We've added some new things to our plate this last year both at individual levels and as a family.  Lately, these commitments are requiring more and more of our time and it's getting to the point where Mom is about to lose her mind! (Well, whatever bit is left, you know!)  So I've been praying & thinking about all the different ways we could reorganize, reschedule, re-blah, blah, blah everything to make it all work.  We need to find some balance.  Well, then the Lord showed me a picture one day.  (By the way, I am still sitting at His feet wondering what He wants me to do at this point.)

Have ever tried to juggle?  I have.  It's a tough skill to learn.  I'm an *okay* juggler as long as I'm using a particular type of ball, of a certain size, & I'm sitting or standing a certain way...without any distractions!  Okay, so I'm not so good! ;)  When I was learning to juggle though, I didn't start with a lot of balls.  I started with 2, one for each hand.  After I got the feel of what I was doing with 2 balls, I moved to 3, then 4. 

God made me realize something about our current choatic family situation that I should have learned from my juggling experiences.  Instead of adding activities gradually with some of our new commitments, we've just kind of piled them all on.  Now it's not like we're running multiple children to a variety of practices every night or ball games two-three time a week either.  (We learned our lesson about that kind of "busy-ness" a few years ago.)  Our commitments are to our family businesses, to AWANAs, to teaching a Sunday School class, to youth activities, etc.  These are all good things that I don't feel we should necessarily give up.  The problem is that we allowed ourselves to take on each of these new activities without trying to find some balance for our family in between.  So what it feels like is trying to juggle 10 balls when you've only got the skills to juggle 3.  So what happens it that the 3 balls you were juggling well are now lost with the rest of the others that you're constantly dropping.  And balance?  Balance isn't even part of the equation when you do that to yourself.

So now, instead of praying for God to bring me a miraculous balance to our lives that would be fixed with the "perfect schedule", I'm asking Him what is it exactly that I can juggle well.  Of course, you know that we cannot juggle anything without His perfect provision in the first place.  So I guess the real question for me is, what is it exactly that He has called for me to juggle?  I don't have all the answers to this yet.  As I said I'm still sitting at His feet.  I think right now, He's working on just building some patience in me to help me slow down with everything.  Instead of trying to continue juggling anything, I need to be still, quiet and have my cup re-filled.

Thanks for listening... ;)