Ruth: part 4

Posted by Kirsty on Nov. 7, 2005 @ 5:52 PM

Dear Diary,

I'm sorry it has been so long since I have written anything.

I have gone through so much.

Elimelech is dead! He was so sick, there was just nothing the doctor could do.

Well, my sons did marry Ruth and Orpah; and now I'm living with Orpah and Mahlon.

I feel like such a burden but there isn't anything else I can do.

I can't help but think that it was partly my fault that Elimelech died.

If I had gotten the doctor sooner then maybe he would have been okay. I guess I'll never know what would have happened.

I feel as if a part of me died when God took Elimelech. I have an empty hole that I don't think will ever be full again.

I think about him daily; at first I was so mad at God but now it's not that bad. I guess I can somehow live with it if that's what God wants me to do.

This was read at Elimelechs funeral:

Elimelech was a good man

Showing his love

In doing all that he can

The tears are flowing now

But that won't last for long

You ask me, How?

And I'll tell you about

       heaven.

We have to face the facts

that in spite of all our acts

We will never see him unless

 we live our lives

To serve the true God

Some people live long lives

some live short one's

He left behind his wife

and his two sons

If you had to go today

would you be able to say..

"I lived my life for God every single day"?

I have been thinking about this a lot. I know I would not be able to say it.

But maybe if I try hard enough, I can live my last days for God.

Naomi